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Sejia Valo Poem
Where do you turn
When the world has fallen apart
When you are so lost
You don't believe your worth being found
The thought of God makes your heart pound
And you begin to run
Run back to the comfortable place
Where each day you wake up with another face
Hating your life and this place
But when the light comes to close
You run... Just to watch your world fall apart
Something you have always known
When the pieces are broken
They can be easily handled
Like a night with only a candle
Never being able to see the demons
That surround you
When the pieces slowly come together
You realize what your past made me sether
How much this world has taken
And the decisions you never should have maken
So when my world falls apart
And I am alone
I remember this is all I've ever known
This time the light came too close
I swore I wouldn't run
But A few steps back came all too naturally
And as the darkness comforted me
The light burnt my soul branding me with the memories of peace
Reminding me life doesn't need to be shattered to be fixed
And improvement is the hardest risk
Like waking up from an endless dream
My eyes snap open.
And I begin to walk over shatter glass
From broken memories of the past
As the pieces dig into my skin and blood begins to flow
I realize the past is only skin deep and its time to let it go
For shattered pieces of a broken life
Will eventually pass as I walk closer to the light
And the pain of yesterday
Will be remember as if it was someone else's life
For once I know I was always strong enough to win this fight
And the past was hard only because I had no future
So when the world falls apart look ahead
Because the light will come again
And remember the darkness not as you see
With the candle of the demons and forgotten memories
But as it truly is... A place of eternal darkness
Where no one can go and no one ever wants to be
Copyright © Sejia Valo | Year Posted 2011
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You hold your side
Because if you don't you know you will just fall apart
Honesty, does nothing. Might as well lied
You breathe deep to fill the empty space
A place where hope should be
But there's not a single trace
You run to the space in your mind
That's meant purely to hide
You will never have a home
Words just to make you cry
The cold can't touch you
Because the fear has already consumed you
Fear you thought you could hide
The pain you thought the world was bind too
The hardest thing to know
Is that your suffering is shown
That those around you see you dying
They reach out there arms
But your not trying to get help
You can do it alone
What's one more punch
What's one more burse
Or one more tear
It makes you stronger
Your just standing to close for it to be clear
Enough is enough and you can't go one more day
With a family of broken trust
But your legs won't work and you clasp
There's no more fight in you
There's nothing left to do
You cry out to the heavens
Screaming your sorry for everything you did
And everything you didn't mean to do
You know it's not your fault
But it doesn't matter, His wrath is unwavering
He didn't do it so it must be you.
He tells you when the world blows up, it was simple to kill you
Fear is something you learned at a young age
Something that's stronger then love and stronger then rage
Fear of losing everything he let you have
You can wish and you can pray
But one simply fact still remains
He own you every day until breath leaves your body
For fear and pain
Is all that's left
Because that's all he made
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Betrayal at the end of a long list of emotions
Felt because of your longing kiss
The best saved for last
The one that trumped all other in the past
The hardest one that will surely last
And it has finally come to this
We had a great run, on that we do agree
But everything must end
As the anger will replace over whelming love
Until the day i wake up and fly away never to be the same
But this is the path you chose
This is the answer that you gave me
When you said love is all you can see
So is this what makes you happy?
Not running away with me
For your presents only coldens my heart
And your once mind stopping green eyes
Just make me remember how we fell apart
You said you wanted to start somewhere new
Somewhere are love could be true
Yet I stand alone with three thousand miles between me and you
So how do I make you go away
Without hating myself in the end
How do I let you go without letting you know
It's all your fault
The answer is simple, I don't
For the rest of our lonely lives
We will both remember each other
We will remember the pain
And forget the joy of having the person that truly understands
Yet not I understand,
Why you always said we were pure evil
For what else but that,
Could watch as we killed ourselves
And as we killed the hearts of each other we called home
For no reason, other then
We were already dead
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An evil falls within your bodyThat no one can see
A darkness that's meant for you and me
Never in this world have I found a soulAs evil as dark as broken as mine
Hood up eyes darken your heart beats slower as you walk my way
A friend of mine you have changed
Every muscle in my body tells me to run Away
My heart feels the painAs my soul watches its twin walking in
Sliding down the wallUnable to do anything else
Breathing quicken as I feel you next to me
Eyes open to see evil itself in front of meA growl flows from the familiar places
Your breathe burns my neck in the best ways
Scared of what I see but I can't push you away
I lean farther to the cornerAnd in the moment of my weakness
You went in for the killYour body pushed against mine
Your teeth on my neckGrowling As I knew in any second my life could be through
Your teeth scrapping my neckAs you breath filled my ears and blow my hair
No where to run,not wanting to scream
Curling into my selfYou pull my arms away
Pinned now Held by your power
The darkness covers me and I give up the fight
My Evil rises My demons once again walk
My resting place I have found, an understanding of the claimed now
Unleashed and untamed I look into your eyes
Only to find the light is gone,The humanity has fallen
Now I see everythingNo shield No glamor
Blackness pours out of your eyes as if they were waterfalls
My mind tells me to be scared The light in my soul says to pray
Voices said that you were hear to make me learn
To teach me the ways
We are the two that our cursed
Smiles cross our faces I now no where I completely belong
Your hand reaches outI can't resistsThe peace the comfort
I'm Home as I accept his hand and my life begins to fall away
Now I understand that I am yours
I know who you are As the world passes us by
You pull me off the wall and lead me towards his victims
Or are they our friendsLooking around they see nothing different
My hand in his as we stand by there sides
A moment in time we shared A moment only we could see
As if someone stopped the turn of this world
I Urn for the feeling of our darkness
It whips away all the pain, It connects us in a ungodly way
Feening for this drug again, Sober scares us into the light
Stoned enables us to find the meaning of our life
You are my connection to what is ours
You are my darkness that pulls me back from the light
You are what reminded me of why I am here
We were meant to meet meant to invoke the powers we were giving
And save our selves from each other
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I saw it coming
Yet I was too far away
As my voice fell on deaf ears
I heard the tires squeal
As metal bent and bones were crushed
I ran towards my true love
My tears ran down my face
Like the blood down his
He told me to save him
But I wasn't enough
Years of training for what?
As I held my love in my arms
Blue eyes began to dull
His life leaving is all I saw
Everything will be ok
I said with a soft lie
Believing only that it wasn't possible that he would die
Minutes seemed to take hours
Till I heard the sirens till the lights finally found us.
Do you hear that my love
There coming I said holding him in iron arms
His breathing slowed as his voice pierced my soul
I love you, But I have to go
The last words his body would let him control
No you don't I said in a voice that wasn't my own
I can save you... I can do this.... I can't lose you
Just hold on I promise I'll make this ok
I love you baby so you must see another day
A smile crossed his face
As the sun shined
His soul finally escaped his body's case
Tears fell from my eyes
As if it was my last time to cry
My bittersweet lie that I could save you
Circled in my head
And I realized that I wasn't enough
That I couldn't save him
That I had to hold my love as he died
And the last words I said to him were my worse lie
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Let me pretend
Let me close my eyes and remember that this is a dream
One more lie to help mend a ripping seam
Just one more moment I can forget how much my heart bleeds
One more love that is less then what it seems
Dear pain, the pain of dreaming, the pain of being
My dear friend, how have you been?
Through all this pretending and fake mending
I forgot our deal was still pending
Now as my dream has ended, my payment has come due
Another part of my soul, you can now consume
A realization I constantly forget, Hope is not your best bet
The disappointment in lost love, can't compare to the misery
I knew I would have to bare
Ass my heart bleeds, I then run to you
The words I speak I wish weren't true
Your eyes express the pain I can no longer feel, as I try not to explain it's not a big deal
Words flow as I soon regret, you remind me how much I can't feel
How much this shouldn't be real
I've prayed to God to let me feel
He has kept his deal
I feel anger, I feel pain, I feel loneliness
And who's to blame
The love, The hope?
But happiness is the missing part of the wheel
So with pain and darkness I make another deal
The out come is all to clear
As another part of my soul it will sire
But the dream will remind me, that I can't give up
I can't give in
Maybe one day the dream will come to life
Or maybe one day pain will take my will to fight
But either way
I'll leave the limbo between ripping apart at the seams and hopeful dreams
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As you read my mind you sing our song for the last time
I realize why I fight through all the lies
And jumped through your impossible hoops
For your voice brings me peace in a world full of war
And your touch slowly creeps
On a heart with ice to its core
You stare into my eyes with love you can no longer hide
And for a moment I forgot this was good bye
As my heart longs for your kiss
You remind me that my thoughts are not just my own
And you kiss me like your heart has finally found its home.
The thought of this being the last slips away
As hope burns through my brain
You hold me like I'm your dying wish
Reality falls on me like a ton of bricks
As we pull away, and your words that brought me peace
Sends me to a dark obis
I love you baby I promise I do
But I love her too goodbye
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Old friends remind me of my old lifes
Different times in the years past
With different stories and different laughs
But with each chapter
I leave them fighting in the past
Thinking moving on is leaving everything behind
Realizing I can't bring them all with me
So I bring none of them
Reliving old dreams when our paths cross
And wondering why I don't know you anymore
You pretend like we are the same
But I can't contact to a life I swore to never live again
And I'm not the same person that held you when you cried
I'm not the girl that left you behind
I've changed to many times to count
And one day you will know you can't count on me
So I come to the place that holds most of my lives
Walking around surrounded by ghost in this desolate town
I smile and wave to my past and pretend I remember it
But this isn't going to work
This isn't what the world taught me
So I run away Haunted by memories and broken dreams
Friendships come and go. One thing stays the same
Me running from the comfort of the past
Yelling I can't live like this
Six months is my limit
Six months to pretend to be fixed
But in the end it's me running away with a suit case
For everything I wanted in those months was ruined so I start new
Instead of trying to fix a broken heart with industrial super glue
I start over with something new
The only problem is the scares are still there
The brakes haven’t heeled
And because I have never learned the right lesson from my past
I'm forced to relive it
Until I find the answer I always am searching for
Or it destroys me like countless times before
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As I close my eyes and try to remember your face
A darkness comes I can't seem to erase
I sit in silence just to hear your voice
But the noise of how my life has changed is the only thing I can hear
My heart has let go, for feeling are too far gone
But my mind holds on remembering a smile
For I have no hope to hold on to now
And I'm stuck in limbo praying for hell
Heaven never last
With hell wrapped around like a cast
You did what I told you to do
Left no doubt of what you wanted to do
The only question I have left
Is what happen to the man I saw that day
The beautiful words you called to say
You loved me
For that I have no doubt and in all my years I thought pain had nothing left to teach me
But pain taught me love wasn't enough
So I come home to stare into brown eyes
That saved me countless times
To find death has taken hold
To the last thing that had my soul
And with all the dying
I've been trying to see the reason of love
But all that is left is pictures of days in the past
When happiness seemed to last
Now like countless times before
I see my self wishing for the past even more
Reaching with empty arms
For something I can't have back
And with you both my skin still can feel your touch
My lips fear to have lust
For they fit perfect with you
But death had to claim you
In that moment I saw my love was true
So let me not fear this knife
With it's cold blade of truth
Let me feel the blood
From the heart that bleeds for you
For if death can take you
Then it can come for me too
Rejoin us in heaven or hell
Just so I'm with you
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Tears fall down like crashing waves
Pain that follows me through everyday
Broken and abandoned
I turn to myself
No one else is left to help
A darken space where family should be
A rotten taste as they make me bleed
Torched everyday, for words i dare not say
A year and you ran from that place
Beaten and forgotten, in the world you had no place
Yet I'm going countless years strong
With no way to tell this is all wrong
Love was never taught yet numbness made the learning curve
I dream as if one day it will all go away
But I know tomorrow is just the same day
I hate hope more then life
Yet without it there is no reason to fight
Hope is better then nothing
So I hold on tight
Dreaming of a day without fright
So I dream of things Ill never have
Pretending one day it wont be this bad
What else is there to do
When your stuck in an endless loop
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