Ripping Apart At the Seams and Hopeful Dreams

Let me pretend Let me close my eyes and remember that this is a dream One more lie to help mend a ripping seam Just one more moment I can forget how much my heart bleeds One more love that is less then what it seems Dear pain, the pain of dreaming, the pain of being My dear friend, how have you been? Through all this pretending and fake mending I forgot our deal was still pending Now as my dream has ended, my payment has come due Another part of my soul, you can now consume A realization I constantly forget, Hope is not your best bet The disappointment in lost love, can't compare to the misery I knew I would have to bare Ass my heart bleeds, I then run to you The words I speak I wish weren't true Your eyes express the pain I can no longer feel, as I try not to explain it's not a big deal Words flow as I soon regret, you remind me how much I can't feel How much this shouldn't be real I've prayed to God to let me feel He has kept his deal I feel anger, I feel pain, I feel loneliness And who's to blame The love, The hope? But happiness is the missing part of the wheel So with pain and darkness I make another deal The out come is all to clear As another part of my soul it will sire But the dream will remind me, that I can't give up I can't give in Maybe one day the dream will come to life Or maybe one day pain will take my will to fight But either way I'll leave the limbo between ripping apart at the seams and hopeful dreams