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Tamara Brown Poem
Wounded by the words of hate
For you to change I will not wait
I guess I was the one you didn't need
Too blinded by your ego and greed
Its the same thing with all you guys
Filling my head with all your lies
Telling myself that all is well
While words were said that bite and yell
You never hit me; you wouldn't dare
But you left scars if you care
Scars that constantly try to hide
Scars that are forever burned inside
The days I'm unhappy to be alive
Are days when thoughts of you arrive
Days when i pull my hair and yell
Knowing, of course, nothings well
A new idea like smoking pot
Brings my mind to other thoughts
Scars that are forever burned inside
Bring thoughts and attempts of suicide
Your memories have made me insane
Constant thoughts and constant pain
From memories of you I cannot hide
Bringing scars to the outside
Knowing of course nothings well
An apology you came to tell
But wounded by the words of hate
A sorry from you came too late.
All this time you always knew
Haunting you what i went through
Memories of my awful life will burn inside
Until you drive yourself to suicide
Two lives filled with scars and hate
Was it chance, or was it fate
At least the pain and wounds are no more
Two lives ended ends a war.
_By Tamara Brown_
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I feel
the pain
of absent truths
the proof
is in my actions.
The lack of feelings
I'm dealing with
make me realize
theres only a fraction
of happiness.
but I want it all
cuz I recall
the better days,
but that was a ways
away.
My thirst is profuse
which the use of water
cannot dilute.
I'm voracious
but my hunger
is tenacious
and tough.
Bread alone
is not enough.
You knew,
I knew,
we all knew
the truth.
The proof
of unlasting happiness
is evident
and I've spent
just about
enough time
trying
to proove otherwise.
My cries
overpower
my hour
of worldly happiness.
I guess I feel
fed up.
times up
im done.
-Tamara Brown
Jan 1, 2011
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I drown in tears I shed for you
You drown in clouds of smoke
I suffer when I look at you
You suffer when you choke
There's pain in every screaming lung
There's sorrow in my heart
For everytime you take a puff
Your breaking it apart
Don't you know your life is changing
With every smoke you get
Your life is getting ever shorter
Just like a cigarette
_Tamara Brown_
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Looking in the mirror
I peer into my soul
Who am I now?
How did I get here?
I fear I'm lost
Tossed into this world like nothing
Something worthless
Like I'm worth less than bread
And I dread tomorrow
Sorrow overpowers my will
To go on
Is hope gone?
How can I carry on
Like this?
I miss sanity
Vanity created this life
Now strife is abundant
In my world
Hurled me into darkness
An abyss of absentness
Meaningless happiness
Confessing its inablilities
As we have known
And it has shown
But must we keep prooving it?
We're losing time
With redundant proofs
Of this truth
Time is better spent productively
If ppl could see that
They would be that much happier.
Jan 1, 2011
Tamara Brown
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dont understand
and cant stand
cruel hearts
and for the most part
dont care too
im not like you
dont miscontrue
the way i feel
to be real mean
cuz i mean, look
u stay a closed book
take a look at yourself
its unhealthy to bottle up inside
and hide from everyone
you gotta outrun your fears
years coulda been saved
tears coulda been saved
depraved minded all this time
not thinking it a crime
to hurt those around you
but its true that indeed
that the innocent bleed
at your feet
defeated and breathless
hopeless and lost
at the cost of what?
your pleasure?
there is no measure
of how digusted i am
and i am disgusted
at the very least
at how you feast
on others' pain
and embarrassment
whether thats how you vent or not
you think your a big shot
taking cheap shots
bullying your way thru life
well you feel good?
you feel empowered??
Well all i see
is a hopeless weak coward.
Tamara Brown
Feb 3, 2011
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Life is complicated
We love it, we hate it
And hate each other
And every other person we meet
Cause we think
We have to please them
And we dont want to
But we dont got to
So we dont
But thats what theres too much of
Theres not enough love
Between us
You've seen us
We fight
In spite of one another
One hating the other
Breaking them down
Then turning around
And putting on another face
Going to another place
And doing the same thing
Playing the same song
When all along
You want more
You fall to the floor in exhaustion
Your lost in your habits
How can you change now?
With the life you live now?
You can, Ive seen it done
Don't run, face your trials
And in awhile
You'll forget the strife
And love your life.
Tamara Brown
11-21-10
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I dont understand
and cant stand
cruel hearts
and for the most part
dont care to
im not like you
dont miscontrue
the way i feel
to be real mean
cuz i mean, look
u stay a closed book
take a look at yourself
its unhealthy to bottle up inside
and hide from everyone
you gotta outrun your fears
years coulda been saved
tears coulda been saved
depraved minded all this time
not thinking it a crime
to hurt those around you
but its true that indeed
that the innocent bleed
at your feet
defeated and breathless
hopeless and lost
at the cost of what?
your pleasure?
there is no measure
of how digusted i am
and i am disgusted
at the very least
at how you feast
on others' pain
and embarrassment
whether thats how you vent or not
you think your a big shot
taking cheap shots
bullying your way thru life
well you feel good?
you feel empowered??
Well all i see
is a hopeless weak coward.
Tamara Brown
Feb 3, 2011
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Where once the innocent
Now the guilty are
And if u now are innocent
Guilt is not that far
The innocent cannot last
When temptation is abound
And where there is temptation
Innocence wont be found
So if you feel like being good
Just know that it will pass
Cause no matter what we feel inside
The innocent dont last.
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Haunted by my memories
Reminded of those I hate
Destined to be alone
Left with feeling I create
Surrounded by my many thoughts
Waiting for something new
With all this hate I have inside
Whats a girl to do?
I wrestle with my sanity
I struggle to keep my cool
In this game of life and death I'd say...
I'm to play the fool
Flirting with the idea of madness
What have I become?
Instead of feeling it a shame
I could have some fun
But if your gonna stick around
I'll give u some advice
I'm crazier than I look sometimes
So dont ever close your eyes.
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Its not right
dispite
this feeling inside.
I cant hide
the lies I deny
but I try
to fight to hide
the truth
and the proof is unfolding
and I'm holding the key
that will free me
from my own stupidity
that causes me to stumble
but if I'm humble
and hide my pride
and step out of this mindset
move on and forget
I may finally be
free and at peace.
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