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Serenity Baker Poem
Always around
slightly small mostly black
think of my kids
that's what holds me back
cracks in my heart
such a delicate shell
tears fill my eyes
my eyes start to swell
try to be a new me
no drugs no liquor
now my eyes open wide
more reasons to pull the trigger
thought it was real
did you mean what you said
starting to see the truth
make the target my head
holding back so much pain
but still some leaks out
no one to talk to
feel better with cold metal in my mouth
no peace in my soul
it will not rest
another thought comes to mind
aim straight for my chest
even then I cry
thinking of taking a last breath
seriously thinking without me
would the children be best
feeling like a criminal
I've committed no theft
here is a person that's broken
I have nothing left
I'll walk away now
before I do something stupid
stop leaving it around
one day I might use it
no, no.... I can't
gotta remember my babies
this is a silent prayer I'm tormented
God please save me
Copyright © Serenity Baker | Year Posted 2010
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I thought about everything
walking down a dark hall
then I thought maybe I should expose
my feelings on paper taped to the wall
I have a sickness no cure no drugs
I am comforted by a thought my wrists bleeding blood
bloody dark sticky ooze
covering years of pain and emotional abuse
closed eyes deep breaths sharp pains in my chest
never a right answer always wrong I guess
where is love what is a friend
one mistake never forgiven
one wrong turn that's why its dead end
this place just gets darker the light never begins
don't want to be alone just need to get help
all my joy has gone only hurt is felt
caught in my own quick sand depression
if there's anything I learned life's one big lesson
Copyright © Serenity Baker | Year Posted 2010
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who can I talk to when no one cares
who holds me when no one is there
how do I express myself if no one wants me to share
my faith is strong but emotions make me weak
sometimes all day sometimes all week
I cry while I'm awake I cry myself to sleep
I cry on the inside all I feel is defeat
I don't want to give up but I feel like I've already been beat
no reward at the end no big blue ribbon
just me and the emptiness no one's missing
not missing me not missing my face
not missing my conversation I have no place
there are no ties there are no strings
only pain I feel but no one sees
or no one wants to see they are blinded
cold and alone never leaves everyday I'm reminded
thank God for God who can forgive mistakes
that's true love NEVER forgotten simply erased
lessons learned with time so set your pace
I'm just looking for love not to be replaced.
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Serenity Baker Poem
It's kind of funny, I don't know what to write
is this supposed to be about my life
It never will be my heart pumps like a wilder beast
I need you in my reach please don't stop
my heart my stop can't go to the top without you
I refuse
So guess I got the blues how do I choose
let me out tape over my mouth feel like I'm trapped
in this house know what I'm talking bout
And if somebody find out then he might find out
Then I'm out permanently you see cuz loving you
deletes me and I'm no where ready to take you steady
but I can't help this feeling growing in my belly
shortness of breath
you already know you the best so why contest to this dude
there's no contest let me take care of the rest
I'll be back in a flash and if you asked I'd give it all to you
including this cl*ass codes to my cash cuz it more to you
than blunts rolled and checks cashed I want something that will last
I can't take this running forth and back scratches on the back
but its worth it he's worthless matter fact pick me up in the black
tell me what you want me to do cuz it's always been about you
seRENIty
RENI GAME FREESTYLES
myspace .com/ renygamefreestyles
that's not a link to anywhere just link information for the freestyle above
that I converted to a poem I guess anyway its the first video hope this is ok
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Serenity Baker Poem
It's hard to let go
it's even harder to see
when the person that's lying
is really me.
I shout and I yell
and I make people mad
then I get angry
then I get sad
I'm frustrated, I'm confused
I really want my friends to stay
but I push and I push
until I push them away.
It seems I have a problem
so starting today
I must learn to accept what happens in life
even if I don't mt my way
I don't know who I am
I don't remember who I was
but learning to be me again
would definitely help my cause
call this a poem or call it a prayer
but this is the 4th 5th 6th chance
and there's someone who's still here
for me and for them
i want to do the truth again
because if i can't i'll continue losing my friends.
Copyright © Serenity Baker | Year Posted 2010
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