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Tumelo Mogotsi Poem
sometimes i dream
of things that seem unnessesary
things i wish i had
and my heart pains at the joy i think..
i will posses if i acquire these
my mentality blinding that which i can really see
and my stubborn mind refusing to believe it
my purpose is fuelled by hope
the undying passion i have to succed
and the hunger to make my point clear
my endurance..my hope
i cannae give in
for this is my LIFE
my reason for existence
the centre of what i am
i refuse to believe i am free
for i AM trapped by who i am
enclosed by who i want to be
but not even free to become that
i refuse to say i am lucky
for i AM blessed
i disagree with those who shout i am lazy
for i have worked hard
i willnot recognize the existence of my family for i cleary have none
my tears of sorrow
mean NOTHING to them
my endeavor
is just a tale told by all idiots such as i
they fit in,where they benefit
i shallnot say..i am perfect
or my life is, its not
i willnot fool myself to think..
i have friends i have mere acquantances
i cannot ignore the fact that i HAVE cried..
for i have tasted my own tears
i have felt pain
for my heart has ached
but BEST of all, i have laughed
i know the pleasure of joy
the fond presence of pride has accompanied me..
all my life
but the misery of life
and its challenges has always overshadowed it
i have learnt not to let pain rule my life
society might not care
i do....
Copyright © Tumelo Mogotsi | Year Posted 2009
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The screams and
ranting
The shouting and
banging
countinue
through the night
They tell the
tale of a plight
of a mother
trying to intill
Dignity in her
child and still
show l.o.v.e
As various
thoughts rage
her brain
Juggle and
mix,the main one
is her child
alone
on the street
gnawing at a bone
And being wrong
she tries her
best
To withstand the
test of this
worlds parent
but it becoming
apparent
its defeating her
Copyright © Tumelo Mogotsi | Year Posted 2009
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Tumelo Mogotsi Poem
What’s the point
in living
When death awaits
What’s the point
in breathing
When you can not
feel the
swelling of your
lungs
What’s the point
in love
When you heart
only aches
What’s the point
of being in a
state of
awareness
When you are not
really alive
What’s the point
in doing your
best
When it is
rarely
acknowledged
What’s the point
in making all
happy
When you are sad
What’s the point
in smiling
When your heart
bleeds
And that colgate
smile
never touches
your eyes
What’s the point
in anything?
Copyright © Tumelo Mogotsi | Year Posted 2010
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A hollow feeling is
What sits within me,
And what I wish I had of you,
I cannot accurately tell
All I know is that..
In this moment my fingers
Are twitching to type out something
Just for your soulful eyes to read
And your mind to ogle on
In this moment,
The depths of my ears are itching
To hear the decadent sound of your voice
And the laughter that always echoes
But of all the things I feel
Is a overwhelming sadness
A heavy heart and a sore head
A painful soul and a crying mind
Cause within this moment
As I think of only you
You don’t even remember me
I look upon all that I have said and done
And truly I wish I had done it better
Because when you have something
In the palm of your hand
And you own it wholly
Its worth in your own eyes declines
But within the composition of your emotions
The value grows larger still
And you realize that in each moment lies dread
In each moment lies hope
That your memory of me
Could be recovered
And the sad spell, placed upon my head
Thus taking away my power to feel
Could be lifted,
And I could feel every emotion as well as I feel this one
As my chest swells,
The feeling of complete abandonment
Threatens to overwhelm my spirit
And in this moment,
I wish I still had you.
Copyright © Tumelo Mogotsi | Year Posted 2011
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My sactuary is
my only turf
my weakness..
is the weakness
of my own
personality
serinity and
calmness flow
through me
yet you do not
know what rakes
within
has life and yet
takes no form
A dullness not i
can comprehend
unsettleness of
the mind and soul
And a churning
of the brain.
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What I imagine is beyond my years,
An equilent stare
And an equilent ear.
A sombre mind
Is what one ought to have, but I foresee
What plays in my head
Is a movie
Of such great distress,
I see a young girl,
A good girl,
And the other side
Of the mirror
Is a different
Sort of girl.
More like the one before
In the image the mirror gives off.
If one would say the mirror lies,
Then that one would realise
The only thing that stands between these two girls is the thin membrane called glass.
Yet with the absence of such, they are merged into one. And when they come out to play
A tiny piece of each stands out like the small glow of the paraffin lamp my grandmother used to forbid us to use
Their memories of each other
Are like the memories
Of one individual person,
Yet seeing them
Side by side
Would greatly outline
Their stalk differences
But in world of fear
You can only love one
And their tears are the only thing that mimics their distress.
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the one i love refuses to love me back
screams with joy to another
and whispers nothing to me
stares and mumbles
something uncomprehendable
But i long for his attention
seek for his voice
found his tolerance
and was rewarded with his vengence
i silently beg
turn around and notice
the girl sitting beside you
and...
evoke the pain that strangles mine heart
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my heart fell as my eyes slowly adjusted...
to his small frame
had he always been so ugly
so short, so ungroomed?
Copyright © Tumelo Mogotsi | Year Posted 2010
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What’s the point
in living
When death awaits
What’s the point
in breathing
When you can not
feel the
swelling of your
lungs
What’s the point
in love
When you heart
only aches
What’s the point
of being in a
state of
awareness
When you are not
really alive
What’s the point
in doing your
best
When it is
rarely
acknowledged
What’s the point
in making all
happy
When you are sad
What’s the point
in smiling
When your heart
bleeds
And that colgate
smile
never touches
your eyes
What’s the point
in anything?
Copyright © Tumelo Mogotsi | Year Posted 2010
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I lie on my now made bed
at a total loss for words and hope
And holding myself upright
Trying to block any thought
From escaping me
More especially the one that bothers me the most
Which would constitute the words you tell me
And those told by my dreams
And my minds simple illusions
Though the faces are blurred
I can tell from the frames who they aren’t
And that alone may help in the detection of their identities
I know what I am embarking in now
Makes no more sense than my confused state
And as I wither away like the fresh flowers by my bedside
I feel as though
I have no real choice or decision
That all this is beyond the reach of whatever power I might possess
And my own life lies outside the stretch of my palm
It sags my heart
And complicates my conscious
Fills my head with childlike fantasies
That only bring me great headaches as they collide with what I know to be the truth
And what I know to be likely and realistic
Vows to live for only the moment and the moment within
Oh what idiocy!
For I am aware that will never come to play
So long as my mind continues
To run and filter things ahead of me
So that even as I type these words half of it is else where
I cud pen a thousand words
But none of the cud completely
In any way
Cover the madness that lays in thine own head
Fairy tales are always the perfect settings
The story is already told
And the drama already written
It’s simple following of what is there
But having to write a story of your own and constantly redefine it
That is pure demanding
Overwhelming thoughts and ideas overlap
Each with an identify fierce and of its own
I wish that I had none of them
That I hadn’t possessed the greatest gift of thought and feeling
That I cud be anything less that human
Anything short of being me
Copyright © Tumelo Mogotsi | Year Posted 2011
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