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Ellioza Nacionales Poem
I'm a real Filipino
but something change on me
The unique color of my skin
That every foreign aim
Was getting darker
I'm a real girl
but my body look not
My body got a muscle
In picking heavy things
Just to have money for foods
This changes of my body
Cause of my work
Under the heat of the sun
Just to have strength
Tomorrow to survive
Whatever changes I have
Didn't matter to me
What important now
I can eat everyday
To face the coming day.
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Ellioza Nacionales Poem
Flying without Wings
I'm not one of the lucky person
Who was born with a golden spoon in the mouth
And look up by people like a star
Because I grow up in a place of rugs
But I never questions God
If some poeple who live the way I live
Believed we born with this fate
And we can't do anything but to accept
But my mind don't want to agree
Because it believe I am the captain of my ship
So I take a breath
And look up in the sky
Telling myself someday I will shine
Maybe not like a star
But I could be a fire fly
I start flapping my wings
So I could start aiming my dream
and just like a baby
Who just learn to walk
I fail and stumble
But the courage I have in my heart
Makes me strong to get up again
Determine to try and try
Until I can spread my wings
To fly up high
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Ellioza Nacionales Poem
It's 6:30 in the morning
I am standing in the station bus
Waiting for a bus way to my work
When the rain start to drop
So the umbrella I always bring
To protect me in cases like this
I get in inside my bag
But what got my eyes
Is not the rain that start to wet the road
But the man who just stand beside me
He look at me,smile while he ask me
If I could share the umbrella with him
And how can I say no
When his simple look and smile
Make my heart beats faster
And the strong wall I build for years
To protect my heart from loving
Due to the obligation I have in my shoulder
Is now breaking
Does the wall I made
Is not Strong enough
To protect my heart
Because I feel now
The wall started to collapse
Due to the strong beats of my heart?
Or is it true that falling in love
Just come and feel it without a warning
Nor No walls could protect it
When it start to beat for love?
Then if it is true
I still need to guard my heart
From the deepest pain
Love might cause.
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My family and friend look at me
As a happy woman
but they don't know
In the deepest part of me
Lies the pain of life
They don't know
That every smile and laugh
Is agony deep here in my heart
Every comfort that I give
Is a trouble here in my heart
Many says I have no problems
but they don't know
Here in my shoulders
I carry the heavy obligations
Of being a breadwinner
Many says I am innocent
But they don't know
Deep here in my heart I learn a lot
To fight the hardship of life
Just to survive
Many says I am simple
But they don't know
I have a lot of dream
To free myself from the obligation
I carried long time ago
No one knows
That I want to go home
Tell my mother about my problems
And let her comfort me
Every time I fall
No one knows
That in a small room I'm renting
When I'm lying there at night
And no one is around
Tears keep falling in my eyes
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Ellioza Nacionales Poem
If a jungle have a lion as a king
An ocean have a shark as the killer whale
A soldier have a general as their command officer
The Country have the President as a leader
My family have our father as our head
His words echo like a roar of a tiger
In every move we made and mistake is happen
Punishment is alwas waiting
The beat that he give,scars is made
But what make it worst
Is not the scars seen in the skin
But the unseen scars in our heart
Whatever wound he causes us
He is still the man of the house
The man who give us food and clothes
And the precious gift of life
and nothing can change that.
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Ellioza Nacionales Poem
Some across the ocean,climbed the mountains
Laydown their life for their friend and love
Because they said they love..
I ask myself I ever feel love?
Because only thing I do
Is to give my hug if they are cold
To give my shoulder when they cry
To listen when they are in pain
Im wondering what really love is all about
I can't across the ocean
I don't have money to pay for fare
I can't even swim
And I couldn't climb the mountains
I'm week and mountains is high
I can't laydown my life for them...
I have still a lot of dream,
I'm afraid to do such thing
But i'm sure what is in my heart and mind
I want my friend and love to be happy
Even they are not around me,so...do I love?
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Ellioza Nacionales Poem
My eyes is open but I can't see anything
I try to extend my hands to touch
But I don't have yet a hands
All I do is wait for the time to come
To know where I am and who I am
Then one time just come,I hear a sound
"Congratulations,you have a healthy baby isnide your womb"
My heart beat faster hearing those words
And if this woman feel me with her hands she will know how excited I am
But mama...Why did you drink
Something that makes me sick?
Didn'nt the doctor tell you its bad?
For the baby breathing inside your stomach,
Mama, I really want to understand you for what you do
But your heart telling me, not too
Because showing me in your world
Is not really what your heart and mind want.
Now my eyes dont have anymore a chance to see
Because its now closing as my breath is slowly takin
Without showing me the place
Where everyone else stay.
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My little girl is crying today
Telling me "Mama,Papa hurt me
Pointing the thing between her thigh
"After he give me a candy"
But all I can do is to cry and hug her
After hearing her agony
For the reason I love her dad
My little girl is now a woman
But there she is still crying
While telling me again and again
"He touch me again Mama"
"And will keep on touching me"
As her mother,I should protect her
But I fail for the reason I still love her dad
My little girl is now a mother
And she is still crying
But this time with a smile and pride
While telling me this words
"He can touch me as often as he want"
"But he can never touch my child"
Then a sound of a riffle that kill my love.
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Ellioza Nacionales Poem
My Papa died before mama born me
And mama leave me before I could see
In the dweeling house of the faithful.
The people give me everything
Nourinshing my soul by teaching me
But I feel something is missing
In my heart,emptiness is there
And seeking for it is the only answer
So I leave the place,which they call my"home"
With the pormise in my heart
I will keep the memories of this place
And the only hope that I have
Is the picture of a woman in my hand
I didn't know the world where I stay
Is different from the world I am walkin in
But with my courage and faith
I will walk this path of hardness
Even though I will be one of the people
Sleep in the street,felling cold and hanger
I will carry all just for the woman in the picture
God hear my agony during the lonely nights
So He lead me to the house
Where this woman in the picture stay
I'm very happy and excited,I knock on the door
the old woman in uniform open the door
Ask me who I want and what I want
So I tell her the reason and show her the picture
And this is the woman say:
"Your mother come back after she elope
With the gardener of this house,she love most
And your gandfather accept her
With the condition follow his order
And that is to forget she have a daughter
Because having you in this house is a big scandal
For the family belong to the royal blood
But your mother love you so much
She tried to escape from the guard
To look for you in the place where she left you
But she fall in the window and died
To avoid the guards watching her all the time
And like the old saying"sorry always come last"
Your grandfather died because of too much pain in the heart
Blaming himself for the death of your mother
But before he died he look for you
Hoping that seeing you will ease the pain he felt
But your grandpa didn't got a chance
Because like your mother, he die "
My tears dropping after hearing what she say
Knowing I have no chance to say"mama"
And the cemetery is the only place
Where I could see her
And the first word "Hi" I want to say when I see her
Will be the start of saying good bye.
I left the place where everyone love and care for me
To look for the woman who give birth of me
Hoping with her we could start a home
A home that I can call really my own.
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Sweats flow over my face
My body shudder,my heart beats faster
As I breath expeditious,
But I can't stop from running
Behind me,Two men in uniform
Keep running after me,
Until I heard a "Bang"
That make me shrink.
When I wake up
Darkness met my eyes
The heat I feel
Seems I'm in hell
I heard a laugh and a welcome
To a man look like Satan
He says he like people
who killed out of money
Just like what I deed,
I thought,I'm just dreaming
But down there,I saw my dead body lying.
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