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Lady Of Sorrows Poem
I feel the bubbling hate
rise from my chest to my face
When I remember the days
I would sit there, embracing it
you beating my ass in your basement
and don’t blame it
on your ex, cuz you were always complaining
and claiming your behavior’s not crazy
No I can’t have your baby
Used to promise that you’d save me but you lied and betrayed me on the daily
Yeah you played me
Staged it like you writing for payment
Enslaved, isolated
But I couldn’t stop chasing
It’s insane how you faked it
In my lap, blubbering like a baby
like you up for arraignment
After kicking my face in
You will never be my family, the past is where you’ll remain in
Four years of my life i spent wasting
So many nights spent debating
Fornicating, i always did what you made me
You would beg for the truth then stand there, just shaming
My heart I felt it breaking,
my small throat in your hands suffocating
My bruises have erased but the memories never fading
The scars you left never healing
So tell me, what was the reason?
You changed up like the seasons
Had me believing, fighting with reason
felt the loneliest when I had you beside in bed sleeping
You would look me in the eye, lie that you weren’t high tweaking
Bodily harm, I was bleeding
How many hours spent pleading?
I would tell you what I needed
You destroyed me for no reason
I know I saved my own life by saying fck it and leaving
Like a death, I was grieving
Had to accept you were cheating
Left and right, like a demon
You live your life with no meaning
Off the liquor stay geeking
You’re a freak and I mean it
Don’t hit my line when you leaning.
Copyright © Lady Of Sorrows | Year Posted 2023
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Lady Of Sorrows Poem
Regret has become a vindictive old friend
We’ll go hand and hand until my cold bitter end
And as hard as I try to fake and pretend
These holes in my heart I’ll never fully mend
All these men
They feel free to mistreat my body
In the mirror, I can’t see the carefree girl I used to be
SET ME FREE
LET ME FLEE
TO ESCAPE
TO RELIEVE
I don’t believe I’ll see days
where I’m not bogged down in a haze
I just crave a safe space
Some peace thru this unending pain
Everyday it’s the same
People don’t seem to change
I’m estranged
and deranged
My brain it daily deteriorates
But still, can’t complain
Got a roof when it rains
And the bills they get paid
While single mothers they slave
Slave away, for better days
Can’t even get to a place
to put some savings away
Why this world just breeds hate
They’ll even spit in your face
This human race
I’m displaced
Can’t find a trace
of some kindness or faith
Can I leave? Is this a dream?
OH PLEASE, GOD.
WAKE. ME.
Copyright © Lady Of Sorrows | Year Posted 2023
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Lady Of Sorrows Poem
Moms wondering when her son will come home
She don’t realize he now belong to the road
Chose his own destiny, a hustler’s life
Married the game, she’s a demanding young wife
He’s lost sight
Throat tight
No longer can tell what’s wrong from what’s right
Heart now froze
No one allowed close
He shows no signs of remorse
On the outside, he’s young but inside he’s grown old
His soul has gone cold
Just like his daddy before him
Every night spent crack scorin
For the junkies out whorin
Sirens goin neighbours phonin
Outside rain and thunder stormin
Pitbulls will tear you up in a moment
Feds knocking at the door and
Heart racing paper chasing
Banana backwoods in rotation
Using his pain as motivation
To reach the desired destination
This heavenly location
Of the highest mental elevation
Knows all he’s got in this world is himself
You’ll never catch him even asking for help
The dreams he once made now sit stored on a shelf
Ducking the doctors cuz he’s neglected his health
His obssession with wealth
Is the only love he’s felt
He’ll sleep once he’s dead
Justifies it in his head
Speaking of sleep, when’s the last time he had his own bed?
Or the lights behind him weren’t flashing blue, white, and red?
All he feels is dread, belly stays underfed
This lonely life he’s chosen to tread
The persistent intention of securing his bread
The predictability of it all poses a threat
He’s got himself now ball and chained to a debt
Daily gambles on his freedom so he drinks to forget
All night praying for peace to be sent
Maybe if God showed Himself he’d repent
How many hours have really been spent,
Replaying his choices,
to catch the exact moment,
Where it all went to Hell.
The Devil disguises Himself so well
Remember that Satan is just an angel that fell
His mind become a max security cell
A prisoner a slave, no time to rebel
Before he can even catch a moment for himself
Fiends are ringing his line, time to hustle and sell
So it’s back on the shelf for you, My Dreams
Maybe I can visit you one more time before I leave
No it’s too late, he’s already behind
His boys always shaming him and knocking his grind
“Why you wasting time sleeping?”
“You’re still not on roads?”
“If you were really that hungry, you’d have been trapping all weekend”
No time for emotion so he quick mixes his favorite potion
Sucks it back with sweet devotion
Okay, maybe just one more portion
“Time to go thru the motions”
Poker face to mask it all. A hustlers life of extortion.
Copyright © Lady Of Sorrows | Year Posted 2023
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