Sometimes My Heart Feels Too Heavy

I feel the bubbling hate rise from my chest to my face When I remember the days I would sit there, embracing it you beating my ass in your basement and don’t blame it on your ex, cuz you were always complaining and claiming your behavior’s not crazy No I can’t have your baby Used to promise that you’d save me but you lied and betrayed me on the daily Yeah you played me Staged it like you writing for payment Enslaved, isolated But I couldn’t stop chasing It’s insane how you faked it In my lap, blubbering like a baby like you up for arraignment After kicking my face in You will never be my family, the past is where you’ll remain in Four years of my life i spent wasting So many nights spent debating Fornicating, i always did what you made me You would beg for the truth then stand there, just shaming My heart I felt it breaking, my small throat in your hands suffocating My bruises have erased but the memories never fading The scars you left never healing So tell me, what was the reason? You changed up like the seasons Had me believing, fighting with reason felt the loneliest when I had you beside in bed sleeping You would look me in the eye, lie that you weren’t high tweaking Bodily harm, I was bleeding How many hours spent pleading? I would tell you what I needed You destroyed me for no reason I know I saved my own life by saying fck it and leaving Like a death, I was grieving Had to accept you were cheating Left and right, like a demon You live your life with no meaning Off the liquor stay geeking You’re a freak and I mean it Don’t hit my line when you leaning.