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Oh Sweet Mother

Once in a while
There was "I love you"
More than often
Lies come before the truth
In eyes flooded like a river
There was never me
For A mere silent moment
There was you
Emotions like a pendulum
Swinging ever through
Imaginary walls
That I called trust
One too many broken
I lose my breath
Skin a light hint of blue
I held my tongue
Desperately gasping
Choking on my youth
Never another silence
A war within my cage
A war fought for you
I died a few times
Unnoticed by the few
Never changing, emotions flew
Pierced my armor
Meant only to scare, I hoped
But only as I hang from this rope
May I ever know the truth
I loved you as my mother
You abhorred me like never before 
Oh dear mother, I understand 
I abhor me, too
Though a barrel rests upon my head
You whispered quietly 
"Shoot"

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A Wisp of Thought

There was a glimpse of time unknown to man
The things none may ever describe
All wrapped within this wall of thoughts
For if a moment of my thoughts are clear
They are not my thoughts at all
Never again will I see the light of the heavens above
Never again will I feel so safe
Entrenched within my thoughts is where ill forever lay
For having become none other than the devils own
The heavens taunt me with pleasant dreams
For perhaps man wrought hell upon themselves for naught
The story of I
Blessed with empty pages
For this road has more than two paths to walk
Within each lies its own end
Never meant to harbor warmth
Each torn to threads of mere threads
Save for the hope of peace in surviving the journey
Which was never truly there
To walk across the drawn line in vain, like myself
Perhaps without myself you may ever truly succeed

Born beneath the men and women who harbor hatred
Perhaps it was I who inspired the following silence
To be mocked with loving smiles from whom I burden
Laughter and glee beneath a veil of hatred,
To which, I was never blind
Though none may ever admit to such things
I can forever admit to seeing truth within the lies
Am I so simple I can not fathom true humanity?
Only glimpsing the truth of time behind your lifeless eyes
I did not believe I was your own blood
For death and life seem to forever cross the path I walk
I cannot see your eyes without the heavens light to guide me
I see now they are much like mine
That vision burned into my veins so thoroughly
Clinging to an emotion so deep within my mind
To truly be a master of puppets
I am the novice of none
In the trials and scenes of such a violent game
Never will I fail to pull the chords of myself
Fading further and further away from whom I never was
Perhaps I was never committed to life
Far too close to this hangman's noose, I ceased to fight

Is there such a thing called sanctuary?
A place or time perhaps I could lay down my arms
For never have I known my armor to be so tight around me
Never have I felt such a desperation to let go of my shield
For being so unbearably denied any affection
I sob alone beneath my helmet, begging for hands to hold onto
Though I am ever greeted with devastating blows unto my shield
Merciless swings at my heart an untold number of times
Until I alone remain atop this mountain of vile
For never have I sent my blade to seek its target
I only hold my ground
For how dreadfully I fought to stay alive
Those around only seem to scowl
Should I let my armor release itself, I must show my face
And to do that, I am not allowed
For only then, would the bowels of hell understand my shame
For it is not war I was sent to fight
It was a sacrifice of me within your place
So that no others must wear this armor
I shall remain alone, sobbing
To be the one to hold onto this pain
Perhaps one day, someone will be within reach
Someone to softly whisper my name

With unseen tears I tread this path
In armor rusted from the blood of my thoughts,
I seek a world unlike my own
For every step I take, slowly I fade to dust
For wisdom comes with a price rarely known
A willingness to dissolve who I want to be
As I traverse this beautiful path,
Only angels are owed
Piece after piece of me disappear
For I may never let down my shield for even a moment
Even though I may fall apart
There may be no sanctuary for one as me
For I am not allowed past the gates above
But even below, I am not allowed any direction
As I am merely void of belonging in this place,
Allowing none to truly know me
For getting to close to darkness,
Will surely cast you aside heavens gate as well
Counting the days passing may give you comfort
But only with patience will you learn how to be like me
To be truly unloved
To shed tears equal to the sea

It was across this ocean I wandered
Contemplating peace beneath the gentle mist of the sea
For how else could man search for something that doesn’t truly exist
Something I could never feel, smell or be
I sit alone across my broken raft
Lost in this vast land of tears
Pleading with the sky above to bring me home
Trembling, as I beg for one last glimpse
If home was ever truly waiting, I would never know
I wouldn’t dare to dream of it
For lately dreaming steals all hope
And when I see your lips form a smile
I feel as if I’m something more
Though I desire to be a man strong enough
If I am strong, I am unsure
For I screamed and sobbed until the windows of my heart shattered
So violent are the memories I watch like a tape
Crimson covered walls in a room with no light
With the window to my heart broken
Only a fool would risk reaching for whats left to take
For you should never risk death for a chance to fix my leak
Even I seek just a bed to give into this ever needed sleep
And when I feel a finger wither at my touch
I reel away as to not make the same mistake

Can you see now, dear friend, what I see?
A willow tree gently swaying between the breaths of the world
With each gentle wisp of this warmth surrounding us
Beneath lies a bed made of leaves, whispering softly
Enticing you to wander near
Elegant light shines upon your smile
As you sit within Heavens lair
Not a thousand sunsets would ever be equal
To such an angels hair
For in this wonderful field of grass
It feels as though your lying on air
For no place in the world could match this dream
No evil could ever wander near
It is such a beautiful sight, the one I see
One only few would ever share
The one place I’m not allowed
For I’ve learned so much about desire
Through endless years of despair
It is here, only you belong
Within the safety of such a place
Heavens lair

Never have I known the world to exist in such a color
Watching the Heavens shatter upon the slightest breeze
While Hell alone praised me in my misery
For as a young boy I saw such evil
While as a young man I became one with it
At what point did the paths of life show themselves, I wonder
For in this long awaited journey I still wander
Ever so slowly, shall I walk onward

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Forever, the End

But an angel to me
I, a baby beneath your war-torn wings
Harboring me
Protecting a hatred so deep
So unbelievably deep
The grace of the heavens shimmer through your hair
But the darkness, oh
It landed on me
Your embrace ever warring with the emptiness that is me
Your baby, given his own world
Your heaven, a piece within your soul
A piece sold for joy
One smile
One true smile, all you ever dreamed for me
An indefinite loss of words
My lips curve
But the ever prevalent silence entertains

Your voice, but an island of sun
I shall forever enjoy
Forever unknown to me, those tears
Behind the galaxy in your eyes
The morning dew dripping endlessly
A day came the endless left you
Left you broken, stained in crimson
All alone, I lament
All alone, I shall finish your suffering
Though I mustn't even try
A mirage of smiles inevitably left behind
Forever dragging me down
I shall forever be your devil
For I love you, dearly
Your broken darkness, I will become one with hell
For I will let you see the gates of heaven
For only without I
May you find your own peace

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Dear Dad,

Maybe I'm a few years too late
Hopefully, I'm not
You were the person I wanted to be
But what I became, I hate
The air within my lungs
Tearing my throat apart
A loss of words, I cannot explain
With eyes of a soft gold hue
We imagined life without pain
And now I live my own life
A life without you
Why could I not have known you better?
Why do I have to live like this
Knowing nothing except I don't know enough
I saw you resting peacefully
Not a single breath to stir the room
I was just so cold
While you lay there, covered
In blood from your wounds
"I love you, never forget that"
Love never felt so true
But a witness to your suicide
Must I remind myself?
These images of the good times
They escape me
But the tears upon your lifeless cheek
In these thoughts, I shall drown

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My Heart

Ever transparent
Elusive to those that seek
Torn and wounded
Its insides peek
A floating breeze
Silk upon its cheek
A world of thoughts
Where no thoughts meet
Through layers of empty
Its insides leak

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Left Foot, Right Foot

Why!
How dare you apologize?
Such foolish allegations once made
Regret, followed by your lonely shadow
I loved you so much
And you forbade me!
All I need is a hug
But you escape me
Though so cold six feet beneath
I failed to warm you
You told me I was your heart
Though your heart has failed, too
Why must thou perceive me as such
A monster?
A fool?
Though you know your own,
You know nothing of my wounds
Not a sliver of love or respect
Lost, when I found you
Forever escaping my soul
Like a rat on a wheel
Endlessly stuck in place
A place filled with regret

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Exile

Silently, it sat
The figure of a young child
In tears, it sat
Frozen in time
For time was never an escape
I waved, I smiled
And he bellowed out
Pure fear that would forever taint me 
A monster
Horror within his vision
I, a snake
It shook me to my deepest hiding places
Places so deep, it shattered my being
I ran, horrified
The dead eyes of the child catching me
As I closed my eyes, terrified
Falling
Then silence prevailed
And my eyes opened
All dead around me, but a man
Waving at me
Smiling

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Oh, Hello

Oh, hello my friend
It is I, you
We will become one
For after time, I never existed
Simplicity in its finest
Perhaps, nevermore
Let alone, he who wanders endless nights
Entitled to the presence of himself
Though another lurks here as well
Is it the darkness in my soul,
Death, who sits upon my shoulders
I feel weightless
I feel alone
Though never again will I be headed home
Through the river
Across the delicacy that is lillies
Lying careless upon the stone
Grey and brittle all alone
Though all together
Just like me

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Weak Thoughts

Why, I forever ask myself
When deep below the oceans surface
Never, would I reach for your hand
For you witness fear deep within my eyes
The sweetest kind of lie, perhaps,
You spoke
It was so softly you cried it to me
As I felt desperation take hold of my heart
It was through a different hue I watched
As I sunk deeper below
Afraid of the world you held out to me
And as I pleaded to the seas’
Never once could I be allowed to hold it
Slowly, I learned to breathe
Through this world of dense blue tears
Forever slightly transparent, from your sight
A birds eye view, perhaps
As I witness a smile on your lips
Your eyes connecting with mine, as I suffocate
Perhaps never knowing, 
Just how deeply I was wounded
Through eyes of diamond lay one lone memory
Of a time, when I was a child
As passers by stopped, and stared into my soul
So blue, they would say
Moving on,
Without so much as a whisper of after thought
Slowly would I reach for them all
Oh, so slowly
For it dawned a memory of mine
Of a time when I had never heard your words
Never knowing why it hurt me so
For knowing now, it hurts both ways
Should I be allowed this breathe of air?
Your own words said it all
Never
Yet I will never, in my life, cease this feeling
Will I?
For I play my final moments on repeat
As you said, “I love you”
Before you held me blow the water
Oh, sweet mother

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Lately

I opened my eyes today
Sleepless slumber entangling me
Severing dreams from reality
Memories like rewinding a tape
Forever lost in thought
For I lament my loss
Never again will I learn to walk
Held so high above the earth
Soaring above the pavement chalk
Never again will I feel that embrace
Warm arms to hold me tight
A gentle hand to soothe my pace

Ive tried to breath lately
Patient breathes invite coughs
Skipping reduced to a mere crawling pace
I open my eyes and there lies your face
No smile or tears
Just your empty gaze tearing me apart
For I loved you once for many years
I can feel when you were gone
For I myself have no more heart
A loss of words, though many thoughts
Forgive me father for I am lost

I miss every little fight
Whether mother or father, matters not
To watch as faith was lost
To hear your voice as it's now gone
Weakening me by the minute
For every hug I didnt want
I need it now
Though I lie barehanded
I cant find that feeling of love
One must wonder how

The sound of those around me
Their laughter eases my pain
Then the following silence
The coming rain
I would never dare call one my friend
For I have no right
I would not dare bring unto them, my night
When I hear their laugh
I know I can heal them some
For I wish I could love
But like every morning sun
My heart still withers
My end still comes