Your Death

Consumed and confused, Like a lost three year old whose mother has disappeared. Life stolen, but so overwhelming that acknowledgement will not come What will I do without you? Hollowed out, so much of you infused into my being Wrenched out unexpectedly and cruelly Nothing left but a gaping hole How will I live without you? Surely I will bleed to death with this broken heart in my hands Memories like daggers Your scent all around me; in the closet, in your bed How can I go on without you? Living in a shadow, just a zombie Once alive and fueled by your existence Now just a shell without purpose How could you vanish like this? Reality edging in around the walls of denial I have created I will leave everything exactly where it is You will be coming home soon, I’m sure of it How will I ever be the same again? Your ghost follows me everywhere We were together playing Candyland; sweet wet toddler kisses How can I ever be the same again? My hungry eyes search every detail of the photos I have of you Trying to remember the exact color of your eyes Feeling as though you are fading, swirling down a drain What am I without you? Are you cold below the heavy soil? Your warmth is fading here, I ache for your comforting presence, just one more time Who will I become in this insanity? I am so lost without you.