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You looked down at me, blue eyes intent on freezing, looked past my tears, and said you loved me. There was no expression on your face, no warmth in your kiss, you told me you cared, and wanted only me. I placed my hands on your back, kissed that mouth and told you how beautiful I thought you were. Then you smiled that first smile you told me I was absolutely amazing. When the sweat was dry, and the air was still, you wrapped your legs in mine, and stroked my hair. You shared all the moments of your past, the plans of the future, and the child like excitement of your dreams overwhelmed me into tears. I fell in love with you. I fell hard. I fell for a man who felt nothing for me. I fell into the arms of something that I dreamt was there, but faded, like the scent of your skin. I never knew how blind I was. I never thought it would hurt to let you go. I never thought I would have to. I never thought you would ever hurt me, instead you crushed me. You told me you loved me, and you cared. You told me I was worth everything, but you left me. You just left me. No note. No call. No email. Nothing. You just disappeared leaving me to feel like everything everyone had ever said about you; everything you said you were, was true. I danced with you. I let you in to my heart. You saw my soul. You knew everything. You were everything to me. How could you do this to me? Why did you have to lie and tell me it was only me? Why did you tell me I was it for you? Why did you tell me you loved me, and cared so damn much? Why didn’t you stop to think about me just once before eating that cake you so had to have. You looked down at me, eyes still frozen, and begged me to have that baby. There was a beautiful smile on your face, and you said you loved me. You watched me move, and I heard you sigh. I thought it meant everything. You said I was everything. You said you loved me. I thought you loved me