You Don'T Need Me...I'M Always:

Scared..that feeling where my heart hurts and I feel sick. Sad...that feeling where my heart drops and I feel my mind constrict. Losing hope...that feeling where I am alone and nothing can make me feel great. Wanting death more than anything...that feeling that sits in the pit of my stomach, pure hate. Closing my eyes...wanting the world to disappear. Hiding from sight...wanting to be invisible and have my moral existance, unclear. Wishing for the pain to stop...but knowing it will still be there in the end. Praying for peace within...on my knees begging for things to amend. Giving up all the time...actually letting go of what I am bonded to. Planning my last words...**I will always love you...** Thinking about Life after Death...a chapter unwritten, a chapter written anew.