You

I dreamt I saw you And you talked to me Even though I was hurt And my eyes were full of tears in that dream And I was leaving you because I was not ok It felt like my turmoiled emotions were lightly caressed and embraced Waking up I felt strangely satisfied Something I haven't felt since I lost you And that's just too many years ago I knew we had a toxic association But half of me can't figure out if you were toxic too Even though I was broken in my little ways too Making myself prey to those who were preditors And I can't for the life of me figure out if you were just preying on me If me and you meant nothing to you When we meant the world to me And maybe I know and I am a little too afraid to accept the truth And maybe I am just totally incapable of accepting it Because in this lifetime nobody does but you And I can't be with anyone else And that's a scary thought And I want to break from this misery Because nobody deserves to hurt me like that And gets to live without losing me Call me a coward But even though the story of my life reads like a disjointed paragraph I believe it was necessary to lose you