Xxxcutxxx (Stop Me)

I've been feeling extremely unstable Each migraine makes me cry for some comfort Each tear dropped uncontrollably onto the table I've been stressing for that feeling of PAIN/HURT Each stroke of the razor I know will sooth Each drop of blood stains my white long-sleeved shirt I've been thinking outrageous thoughts Each thought tragic erases the bare naked truth Each scar later remembered as, "That was when I was at my worst." I've dreamed nothing but of running away Each average three seconds turns to a full one minute Each entire night awake ruins my whole day I've named this habit as how I've spent doing it Each urge to grab a blade and cut DEep... Each breath taken in to ease the evolving pain I've deprived myself of ever wanting to eat or sleep Each distraction spent online is my safety rope Each night slips by and the more I grow weak I've been searching for a way to willingly cope Each attempt to vent to a person who doesn't understand or know Each broken sentence---I'm gradually losing hope I've finished with this cutting stage ALL energy wasted is glady being reimbursed All happiness locked up is being released from it's cage I've decided to let this pass me by All greatness is the start of a NEW AGE ALL that's left is to: TRY and LIVE foREVER and NEVEr WAnt to DIE