Within the Looking Glass: Conclusion

Now this cross is carried...And a crucifixion--AWAITS--and the blood which has fallen--to late--for an answer, to late to be saved!!! A thousand eyes--wondering/staring deep inside, looking for forgiveness inside of dead eyes gone astray...A hint of darkness, begging eyes that fade...deep within the voices--CRYING/CALLING my name...it's better off inside here--so peaceful and safe... No feelings, no sadness, no sorrow, no pain...I'm now free from the madness-- drifting-- freely/happily away...Away...Away...This will not last forever... SADLY--I begin to feel--I breathe in the poison, of a new life I start--AGAIN-- in a new life I begin again...And there is no END...TORMENT... TO grow again--- to feel again-- to hurt again--to lose my mind, over and over and over again... There is no never, there is never an END...PERPETUAL, CONTINUOUS SICK LIFE!!! There is no absolute meaning...Just a struggle to get by...Forever, and ever and ever TORMENT!!! Within the looking glass--why can't I get in??? Be the one on the inside, instead of the one lost within??? I can't stand to look at you, to see the distorted reflection... Is it me, or is it an ILLUSION??? I don't even recognize you...It can't be me!!! Maybe one day--once again I can step inside, and not come back...Maybe I could just fade away--DISAPPEAR--never exist...And maybe in all actuality--I DON"T!!! Maybe, I'm just a figment in someone elses mind...Maybe, I haunt them with a MADNESS... Or maybe, I am INSANE!!! Or just a little confused...There is a QUESTION to my SANITY, but an unheard answer... Be one looking out--instead of the one looking in!!! 05-14-2002