Wishing For a Smile

I thought it would get easier. A year has come and gone. I hope and pray for a better day, every time dusk turns to dawn. As the time passes, I wish the pain would too. My mind and heart still ache, from the sudden loss of you. I wish I could call and say, “Hello” just to see how your day is going. I wish you could reach down and wipe my tears that are flowing. It is getting harder to say, “I’m fine” and make it through my day. My charade is becoming tiresome I wish there was another way. Pretending that I am okay is beginning to take its toll. Your death has surely rocked me down to the depths of my soul. When you passed away you took a piece of me with you. A chunk of my life I will never get back, and there is nothing I can do. I used to see you in my dreams, but you’ve been absent for a while. At least on those early mornings I would wake up with a smile.