Will Things Ever Get Better

You don't know how hard it is to post feelings that are true. You don't know how difficult it is to realize this has happened to you. I did lose my wife who I was with for ten years. She did take my three kids and every night I shed tears. I did lose a great job because of smoking weed. I blew a great opportunity for me to succeed. I did cut family out and for years there was no talking. I did lose my license trying to work now I'm walking. I did get a bullshit ass restraining order against me kicked out of my house for months. I did get a **** load of problems thrown at me all at once. I did incur a extreme amount of debt I have no idea how to pay. I did have things under control now I don't know what to say. I did use to care but lately it seems that I just don't. I did think things would change, but from the pattern it seems that it just won't.