Why Me?

4 months 4 months of I love you’s and late-night conversations Conversations about college and dogs and anything we could think of Conversations about how many kids we wanted and what we wanted to name them The kids we would have after we had our beach wedding The wedding we pretty much had all planned out from my dress to the color theme to the location I believed in our future the same way people believe in astrology and fortune tellers I believed it was going to happen 4 months 4 months of you starting fights when I even mentioned another guy's name The guys you said you didn’t trust but you said you trusted me and that you didn’t mean to start fights The fights that usually ended with me crying and alone and you going out and making bad decisions Bad decisions that I forgave every time because of how much I loved you You were the first boy I said I love you to and actually meant it The love that I thought you felt too 4 months That’s how long it took you to realize you wanted her more than you wanted me The girl you a past with but said was like your family The girl I never liked but I trusted because I trusted you The trust that was broken when I got the ‘we have to stop dating’ text The text I got while sitting in my grandparents' living room trying not to cry while you explained what happened You said you started seeing her again and that it was complicated and hard to explain You didn’t even try to explain you just left me on read Why me? Why was I the one that got hurt? A kind of hurt that I had never experienced before and hope to never again Why was I the one that called my best friend crying saying that we broke up? The break up that hurt so bad that for 2 months after I cried just thinking about it You were the first boy I ever truly cried over so congratulations I guess I have many questions that will forever be unanswered but if I could pick one to get an answer to it would be this: There are 8 billion other people on this planet that you could have hurt Why me?