Why I Write

Many journeys I have traveled, no doubt I will have many more, all the twists, turns and pits falls in life, all the things I had to endure. Coming to terms with my life, is by no means an easy feat, this is the sole reason I write, it is to understand me. In my words I can escape, from the harshness of reality that's always in my face, the only place i'm safe, where I can truly be free, in this world there is only me. Free from judgement, ridicule and shame, in this world no one knows my name, a place to reflect and contemplate, a place to analyze, to rectify my mistakes. Not all things broken can ever be fixed, so I turn to my writing for inspiration. You'll soon come to see if you read what I write, every thing you'll read is about my life. You see i've have been my own teacher, no one has ever been by my side, struggling to understand things has always been my plight. I feel what I write and I write what I think, and yes sometimes it does come out raw, but there's no escaping that reality, when that comes knocking at your door. As my life unravels in front of your eyes, you'll will all see what I mean, but hey... I know there are people out there that have it a lot harder then me. This is the beginning of a new journey, something for my children to see, when they hit pit falls in there life, they can always refer back to me. Daddy's life on show for all to see, like I really care, the more I start to talk about myself, the faster it is to heal. Not everything in life is able to be handed down, but words are forever, and forever they can be found. For in this world when I've been out for the count, my writing is the only thing that pulls me out. I write to heal.... I write to hide.... I write to live..... I write so I can survive..... M.Mahauariki © 2012