Why I Love Regret
That's Why I Love Regret Contest
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It seemed so hard deciding to walk away,
yet too easy to want to resist and stay.
I felt your touch last night in a dream,
realizing this morning life’s not as it seems.
I should have lost myself in your memory,
but I found my passion leaving easily.
I needed sorrow to feel anything at all,
my regret caught me every time I did fall.
Contrition won't help my mourning to heal,
it only teaches me I don’t deserve to feel.
My inner remorse bled my sorry soul dry,
and I feel so complete every time I cry.
The constant guilt is definitely merit,
for my need for self-hatred I did inherit.
No repentance is asked when not deserved,
my internal balance has not been reserved.
I try my best to grieve in complete silence,
but my mind breaks out in rueful violence.
I’m not worthy of forgiveness or justification,
I feel unwarranted for any reconciliation.
I must carry the cross I was born to bear,
dark and worthy anguish is deserved and fair.
I was saved by my misery, I shall never forget,
that is why I have learned to love regret.
Date Written: June 4, 2016
Copyright © Lu Loo | Year Posted 2016
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