Why Did You Reply
Why did you reply to my message that day? It’s not like you to respond, that isn’t your usual way
For years you have ignored me as though I was a stranger to you, so what changed between then and now? Is your conscience eating away at you?
Or maybe I am wrong, maybe it wasn’t you on the other end, maybe it was someone disguised as you, someone playing pretend
Maybe it was your true love, you know the one that was before, during, and after me? Maybe it was her wondering who I was because she never knew of me
But maybe it was you and you were just afraid, scared that I would continue to reach out and you couldn’t face that play
You were probably beside yourself thinking you had finally been caught, but truly you do deserve this after all the pain that you brought
But that wasn’t why I was reaching out to you, but you didn’t have time to wonder why, you had to cover your tracks and you know it’s true
The past came back to I guess you could say bite you where it hurts the most, and you made your bed long ago with what you now consider a ghost
You acted as though you had no idea who I was that day, I guess that was the path that you were choosing to take
So that way you could be none the wiser and maybe I would leave it alone, but you should know me better than that, oh wait, I guess you don’t
That would require you ever knowing the real and true me, and that would have been hard to do when all that you wanted to do then was play games with me
Well now it’s my turn, am I finally in your head? Are you able to sleep at night now? Or are you reliving the past over and over again?
Are you worried that she would find out about the regret and mistake that you made? You should have thought of her feelings and mine back then when all that you wanted to do was play
But I’ll let you off, don’t worry I can take a hint, we’ll play things your way, the torture in your mind is enough for me knowing that I’m the cause of it
See I’m usually not this vindictive, this just isn’t me, but when I gave my all to you and you treated me as though I was nothing, there was a change in me
So, don’t worry, we’re still strangers as we always will be, I will never contact you again, but I guess that you’ll just have to wait and see.
Copyright © Amanda Kinzer | Year Posted 2020
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