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Why Did He Have To Die

Why did he have to die? Does anybody know How it feels to lose a child A child you’ll never get to know Oh Lord one gets so riled I know there are so many mothers Who know this feeling well But here I tell my sad, sad story My story filled with Hell. I was the age of thirty six I’d been pregnant for eight months I’d feel him move within my stomach How I loved his baby lump But it was then disaster struck I had a nasty fall I prayed to God ‘oh please no God Oh please don’t be so cruel’ They took me to the hospital Who tried to save his life He died and then they told me this That when the time was rife I would have to birth this child Though he was dead inside me And so I did with mind all sick Because this had to be. Oh how awful I did feel That I had to go through this When baby came, a poor wee corpse In me there was no bliss As they took his form away And left me there, to cry Asking god so frantically Why did he have to die? I often think about my son Who died before his birth I think of how it would have been If he now walked this earth I often think ‘If there’s a Heaven Will I, and this child meet? Will he greet me in that world? Where the flowers grow so sweet Vera Duggan 1 January 2014.

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Sheena Russell

Date: 8/16/2021 8:30:00 PM

I just wanted to let you know that there is hope to see your loved ones that have passed away again.

Susan Northwood

Date: 8/7/2015 1:27:00 AM

Vera, this is truly a very emotional poem, reading each word, I could feel the pain as if it were my own child. There is nothing more painful than losing a child, either by death or through such profound injuries, so gives him the life you didn't plan for him. For some considerable time I felt that I had lost my baby, and I was given David to care for instead. Always makes me feel guilty, but couldn't help the way I felt all those years ago xx

Vera Duggan
Date: 8/8/2015 9:31:00 PM

Yes Susan it wasn't the best time in my life, I mean I only had about a month to go and yes I knew you would understand with your David, don't feel guilty Sue because as we know it wasn't through any fault of your own but at least you still have him and enjoy him while you have got him, I would really love to meet him, take care my lovely cuz, love you all to bits.xxxxxxxx

Lisa Duggan

Date: 8/21/2014 5:42:00 AM

My brother, i often wonder what he would of been like this was a very sad sad day love you my brave mum x x

Vera Duggan
Date: 8/22/2014 8:19:00 PM

Lisa my darling I often think what your brother would be like, but it wasn't meant to be, we have the three of you thank goodness and we love all of you, thank you for commenting my dear........Luv.....Mum.xxx

Kelly Deschler

Date: 8/9/2014 11:40:00 PM

My Mom lost a baby about ten years ago, she doesn't talk about it, but I know it still bothers her. I was an only child, so I often wonder how my life would have been different if I had, had a sibling. I think we will be reunited with our lost loved ones eventually.... This poem is so emotional and it is one of those that tugs at our hearts. You did so well with this tender write, Vera.

Vera Duggan
Date: 8/12/2014 1:19:00 AM

Kelly thank you so much, I can understand what your mother went through ten years ago and no we never forget, how could you, part of you has been torn away but we go on for our other children sake but I am sure you had a wonderful childhood regardless, take care my dear and regards to your mother...........Vera............

J. R. Corbin

Date: 7/23/2014 12:53:00 PM

Vera, I can't even imagine this. I guess they say writing helps ease the pain, but you are a bigger person than I. I get weepy just thinking about it. Thanks so much for sharing this. Jim

Vera Duggan
Date: 7/24/2014 12:38:00 AM

Thank you so much Jim and thank you for reading, yes it does ease the pain by writing about it, but it has been 30 odd years now since that happened but it is still there deep down inside, take care...............Vera................

Robert Nehls

Date: 7/19/2014 8:32:00 PM

Dear Vera. You have given me insight into something that is so hard for people to talk about. I can feel the pain and see the tears that fall for your beautiful child that is in heaven. There is much strength and healing in sharing this part of your life and I commend you for that. Blessings to you my friend.... Robert.

Vera Duggan
Date: 7/20/2014 12:01:00 AM

Robert thank you so much for that lovely comment, yes it was a very long time ago and I have healed but not forgotton and yes it does help to share and talk about it, but as I said it is part of my life that I will never forget, thank you so much my friend and take care..............Vera............

James Fraser

Date: 7/7/2014 1:09:00 PM

Incredibly private window you've shared Vera. We also lost a daughter or son, after about 4 months. It saddened me, as my wife blamed herself, when in fact, it was meant to be. and no one to blame. Life is fantastic, and yet so cruel. Highland hugs heading your way, James :)

Vera Duggan
Date: 7/8/2014 8:38:00 PM

I agree James, yes it wasn't meant to be, I hope your wife doesn't still blame herself, tell her from me it gets easier, give her my regards, take care.........Vera.......

Robert Andrew Lyle

Date: 7/6/2014 4:59:00 AM

Thank you Vera for sharing this with us. You moved me to tears Vera. This though extremely sad is a wonderful write and ends with a ray of hope. God bless you both Vera.......Andy

Vera Duggan
Date: 7/8/2014 8:40:00 PM

Andy thank you so much for the comment, after all these years I am over it but I often think what if. Take care my friend...........Vera............

Cherl Dunn

Date: 7/3/2014 8:54:00 PM

So I do understand but maybe our story will give you some comfort, and I do believe some where on the other side you and I will be reunited with our lost children. cheri

Vera Duggan
Date: 7/4/2014 1:18:00 AM

Cherl, so glad you have related this story to me, how beautiful it is, it must have been a blessing when he came in to your life and how wonderful it turned out and yes we will meet them in our next life, thank you so much and take care my friend, regards to the family..........Vera...............

Cherl Dunn

Date: 7/3/2014 8:52:00 PM

He took care of me once when I was deadly ill, and never asked anything except to be part of our family. I was truely blessed but here is the best part of all my Dearest Vera guess when he was born, 1986 the same year I lost my child. I have always said the lord gave him to me to not take the place of the child I lost but so two souls could in some way have a comfort to fill the void inside, that space of emptness not is filled by his smile, and the grandgirls he has given me. yet still i wonder

Cherl Dunn

Date: 7/3/2014 8:47:00 PM

I told him my daughter was still in love with another boy and she would break his heart and that is what happened a few weeks later. Well he came to me and told me, at least I was honest with him, and could he call me Mom. I was shocked,but thank God I said yes, I came to find out his mother died when he was three, and his father took his life when he was only thirteen. In foster homes and tossed was he sense as long as he could remember. He was lost as I had been for years after losing my child

Cherl Dunn

Date: 7/3/2014 8:42:00 PM

Dear Vera, I've lost a child also, in 1986, I fell down a fight of steps when the power went out, and I lost my footing. I was five months, and I mourned for years about this poor little life I lost. Even though I had three more children it made me wonder even more about what if I would not have fallen. Well the lord moves in mysterious ways is in my life the truth. My oldest daughter dated this young man for a few months. Even though I could not stand this boy I was honest with him.

Lucilla Carrillo

Date: 7/3/2014 11:41:00 AM

Dear Vera; I feel for you. I can relate to this. I to lost two babies, they were both boys. one at six months pregnant, the other 3 months. I do believe that one day they we will see them again. I invite you to read ( Dear Mother ) on page one. it is in two parts. God needs little Angels so He took them. Your baby watches over you,... Lucilla

Vera Duggan
Date: 7/3/2014 7:57:00 PM

Thank you Lucilla my dear, it is heartbreaking, but yes I firmly believe we will meet them one day, things happen for a reason, take care my dear, will soup mail you next week Take care my friend...........Vera..........

Paul Callus

Date: 7/2/2014 4:19:00 AM

Oh! Vera, how sad and touching! At the back of your mind there will always be that "if". My wife and I can relate to a similar experience. // You did a very good job with this write; excellent. Take care. // paul

Vera Duggan
Date: 7/3/2014 1:17:00 AM

Thank you so much Paul, yes it was a terrible experience, not one that I would wish on any woman, I am sure a lot of couples have been through it, I certainly am not on my own, but as I said we have three healthy children now and seven grandchildren, thank for reading and take care, regards to the wife...........Vera..............

Robert Lindley

Date: 7/1/2014 9:05:00 PM

My dear friend this is a sad write about a tragic event and you wrote it so very well. My first wife and I had , first a daughter then a year later a son , both died before birth. I share your pain and know exactly how you feel. Great to read you know have three healthy children! That is a blessing. Always enjoy your writes my friend!!!

Vera Duggan
Date: 7/2/2014 12:04:00 AM

Robert my friend thank you so much for the comment so sad also about your loss, yes I suppose we have to be blessed with the three we have and you with Justin, take care my friend and regards to Riza.......Vera..............

Eileen Manassian

Date: 7/1/2014 2:36:00 PM

Oh dear...my heart goes out to you. What a difficult time it must have been...Life isn't always easy to understand. You conveyed your heartache well, here. God sees and understands. A better day is coming....Hugs

Vera Duggan
Date: 7/1/2014 8:18:00 PM

Eileen thank you so much for taking the time to read, yes it was a difficult time in our life but like everything else we got through it. Take care...............Vera..........

Tim Smith

Date: 6/30/2014 11:50:00 PM

My heart bleeds for you Vers...hugs Tim

Vera Duggan
Date: 7/1/2014 8:16:00 PM

Thank you for the comment Tim, it was a hard time, Take care.............Vera..............

Ilene Bauer

Date: 6/30/2014 9:23:00 PM

oh, such a sad, sad story, Vera - my heart was breaking for you as i read it. you've managed to convey all your emotions so powerfully in your poem...

Vera Duggan
Date: 6/30/2014 9:39:00 PM

Thank you so much Ilene, yes it wasn't a very nice time in my life, it is the second baby I have lost but I have three beautiful healthy children now, thank you once again. Take care my friend...............Vera..........