Why Am I Here

Am I here just to watch another rainy day? Am I here just to hope all my pain goes away? Am I here just to survive in this big world of something when most of my days feel like an absolute nothing? Am I here just to struggle with depression and sorrow or should I just pray for no more tomorrows? Am I here just to see how the elderly are mistreated, especially those who are prisoners of hospitals and nursing home disasters? Am I here just to try and accept all the minutes and seconds when my mother had brutally passed away in 2 of those minutes? Am I here just to observe the abusive nature of neglected animals or can the adults who own them possibly change their behaviors? Am I here just to keep observing this ridiculous system? The innocent are punished, while the guilty are rewarded Am I here just to notice all the homeless and their misfortunes, Or could there possibly be someone to assist and protect them? Living in the streets, alleys, or on the ground in the parks seems so obvious to me that others don't care much. Am I here just just to read or watch the daily distractions, or could this place called Earth ever be changed to perfection? People keep KILLING and RAPING, and ABUSING and ROBBING, and STEALING, CHEATING, LYING, and DESTROYING? WHAT remains is a big messy pile of a volatile nothing, when this world we exist in is supposed to mean something. Am I here just to forgive and forget and never release each disaster I've listed or do I just bottle them up and swallow the anger? Am I here just to wonder if these somethings on Earth might ever change, or will each notable nothing keep over powering all faith? Faith that happiness or peace might be restored once again. Just what are the answers or solutions to pray for? Am I here for a repeated whatever???????