Dear God, may I please have an answer?
Am I ever permitted to know
Why one who was still so much needed
Was the one who was chosen to go?
You know I'd have carried the burden.
You know I would have given my all
If I could but have kept my loved child
Until my time to answer your call.
Was there such a need up in Heaven
That would be so much greater than ours?
If that's so, please give me a sign, Lord
I have searched in your sky full of stars.
I don't want to seem so ungrateful
For the wonderful years that we had,
But what will I do with this love, Lord
That is making my days now so sad.
I took the sweet babe that you sent me
And I gave him the best I knew how.
Did I love him more that I loved You?
Is that what you are telling me now?
If that's so, I truly am sorry
And if I had a chance to atone,
I'd praise you each day for my blessing,
For the child who is only on loan.