Why

Why can't you see that I'm trying to be who I was meant to be? And when it comes to me I'm filled with agony. I'm trying to wonder why it's so hard to try to go by in this world all alone and it makes my mind blown by how hard life is on my own. As I'm trying my best to be above the rest as I feel so low and have nowhere to go. It's tough out here when you don't have a ear to listen to you and be a dear friend in need and forgetting all the greed. My life is punching me in the face and pushing me within a darkened place and my love feeling like a waste. But I can tell that's not me talking as I'm walking and stalking to keep myself at bay as I'm trying to find the words to say and go by each and everyday. I feel so sad and making myself mad by how bad I am to hurt you and I don't know what to do because I love you and the pain is so true. Why can't I move forward and head toward what's right in front of me and be happy? I want to apologize for all the lies and things I've done and make my feelings one with you, that's what I wanna do just for you. Why won't you listen to my heart? When we're apart I feel so broken inside as I'm trying to strive with this life of mine. I'll take my time with what I do as I'm going through this pain I feel as I try to deal.