Why

Why hasn't she called? It's been almost a year. Does she not care anymore? Is she that ashamed of me? It hurts day after day, More and more. I just want her to show that she cares, But most of all I just wish she would be my mom again. If she would just tell me she doesn't want me in her life, Then why doesn't she just say it. Why does she make things so difficult? Why does she constantly hurt me? Can she not see what she's doing to me. She left me and threw me out, I was young and didn't know what to do. She told the police she didn't want me, And she doesn't care for me. So they stuck me in foster care. Why? Why would she do that? I'm not that bad of a kid. I've never done drugs, Not once. I've always gotten good grades, And did amazing in sports. But you didn't care, You threw my life away, All for one man.