Who Am I

life in general can be complicated things never seem right problems that can never be fixed confusion sprouts up in my head ideas turn to mush feelings blur together in a giant black blob this is me nothing i can do to change it this horridly ugly body that my once so open mind is stuck in never being able to understand who i am or what i am here to do things ive never thought about are stuck in my mind the problems in my life are uncontrollably rolling down hill people i once thought about are being lost in time the friends that i thought were everything are now distant memories all except for one who seems to be the best thing in my life at this moment to bad he doesnt seem to notice i could be something more than a friend the most important people in my mind seem to disapear who am i? and how do i find out