Whispers of My Heart

'Love at first sight' ain't a truth for me Hearts like mine are too robust to melt that quickly Yet, more as I saw him My childlike heart took a dip In his ocean-like eyes in which I wanted to be the ship Seeing him speak was a treat to my senses Making me blind to other people's successes As I mentally prepared speeches in his defenses. Was this some infatuation? Or some depthless attraction? Who knew that this would prolong for about a decade, Either to let it unwishfully fade Or simply surrender it to fate His greetings and gestures had enslaved me Insofar there awaited bated breaths anticipating in glee But just like there is both heaven and hell in this universe Some were days when that joy was in dearth. There were times when our eyes rolled in words 'Too bad if love has to speak through words' is something I had then learnt A momentary smile was worth thousand pounds of gold Those are memories, distant and lost, sweet and old. However as time had it, we drifted apart By winds of academics and destiny's art. I submerged in my work world and so did he, Still reminiscing the sweet old days full of glee But my elderly maturity kept me back forever My brain's logic at constant conflict with my heart's endeavor. Leave the eyes, even the mouth now didn't serve us right So it was better to stay silent than create a fight Years passed by but my feelings didn't come around The smile which connected us gave way to a hopeful frown Was it our adult egoism? Or a repercussion of our lack of communication? We are still attached by virtue of our past Ties of such cathexis cannot be broked so fast. We never met each other's eyes again But managed to steal of glimpse of the other behind the eye's veil This thick wall built in between is worth a thousand fractures' pain We both had our professional commitments Which we loved dear to our heart Perhaps that was the only companion That enabled us to live our lives apart I have grown out of that shell now Perhaps still trying My heart has just caged his memories So there is no use clarifying We are miles away from each other Though that doesn't make our memories fainter Deep down, I want his life to be full of joy With some space for me still in his heart This is indeed an unfinished story Which I want to stay passive yet steadfast