Where's My Voice

I want to scream God save me I want to scream Take away the blackness And wash me white again I want to scream Why did you leave me God I want to scream Don’t you hear me Don’t you see me Can’t you see me drowning I want to scream Do you even care Don’t you see your child slowly fading I want to scream That no I’m not strong enough And yes I do need you I want to scream I thought you there But you seemed to disappear I want to scream I am sorry for turning away I am sorry for failing you I want to scream I want it all back And so much more I want to scream Why didn’t you pick me up When I fell face first I want to scream What did I do wrong Was my love not good enough I want to scream I am fine I’ve done it this far without you I want to scream I can no longer do it on my own I need you desperately I want to scream I have bitterness because of you Bitterness towards you I want to scream Where were you when I was hurting Where were you when the tears poured I want to scream Where were you when I wanted to end it all Where were you in my darkest days I want to scream Deliver me and take me Take me in your arms I want to scream Take my life in your hands Let your will be done I want to scream How do I let it all go I feel so betrayed I want to scream I need divine intervention I need you to carry me I want to scream I can no longer walk I am weak and weary I want to scream No matter what I can do this I don’t need you or anyone I want to scream Help me fight this battle Fight this war inside I want to scream Help me to overcome Give me what I lack I want to scream Why do I even want to try Why do I want to risk it again I want to scream Save me God Save me God Because you are losing your child Because she is fading fast Because she is looking in all the wrong places Because she refuses to look up Because she is losing that smile you gave her Because she wants to be the woman you made her to be Because she wants to be the mother you made her to be Because she is tired of the tears Because she’s reaching the breaking point I want to scream SAVE YOUR DEAR CHILD But I can’t find the courage… But I can’t find the faith… But I can’t find the voice…