Where Are You Now: I Want You Back

My heart is broken, Never would I have thought that my love would be traded for a measly token. All of this was done to ME when I should’ve been the one who was provoked, I was the one who was nearly choked, I’m the one who feels like I broke. I feel everything and nothing all at the same time, I’d be lying if I told everyone that I’m fine, And even though it’s completely over I’m still trying to find my way out of this bind, And even though it’s completely over the answers I will never stop trying to find. I’m still in love with him and it feels like someone has shot me in the heart over and over, Again from a third person stance they’ll say how could you ever wrong her? This woman doesn’t know how to love healthily because she grew up without a father, And in the sense that even then she still tries to bother, AGAIN HOW COULD YOU EVER WRONG HER? You were suppose to love HER, She even fought for you against her mother, But now I say to myself, honestly why did I even bother? I know that I don’t need you but I WANT you, With you literally GONE I’m not exactly sure what I’m suppose to do, A life without you? I haven’t the slightest clue, One minute I’m ok and the next I’m blue, Though I do thank God for no longer allowing me to look like a fool. I fell for him hard, I tried my hardest to keep up my guard, But it was he who convinced me that it was ok to fall, It was he who called me and every other girl “doll,” Now it is I by MYSELF who has to remain standing tall. You said you didn’t tell anyone that you were leaving but you KEEP seeming to forget that I’M not just ANYONE, After everything that you’ve done, I’m still really and seriously considered “ANYONE,”?! You amped me up and helped me load the gun, You strayed me from darkness and led me straight into the sun, You reminded me how to have fun, But I still won’t and can’t forget that you amped me up and helped me load the gun. My mind is loaded with straight facts, And stupidly enough despite the facts, I still want you back, But I’m not trying to retract, But my heart has been hi-jacked, And despite my earnest pleas, you're all that it wants back. Now that it’s over I’m trying to do healthy things to get over this heartbreak, And along this process nothing will be faked, And for him I don’t have the slightest ounce of hate, But it’s time to move on for me and Ana’s sake.