When You Push You Fall

Overstepping boundaries, clinging onto an empty marriage, carrying the family alone. Husband fighting war with General dreams, of glory, in his head. Carrying myself alone. Knowing alone is lonely, lonelier every day. We are carrying bodies, buddies and homeboys home to their families. Poor mothers, fathers, sisters and brothers, longing for a glimpse of their boy or girl, dead to this world. They grow lonely, lonelier day by day and night by night. Carrying on, pushing harder and harder to make it through with all their fight. Smiling the smile, greeting the greetings, and saying I'm okay. Falling apart from the very start, until you push too hard and the wound is now a scar, and you say I can't go on and the loneliness is gone. You are gone when you push, you fall. Take it easy, easier everyday. Company comes by and then they go away. Easy, easier, easily they say it takes time and the pain will not stay, so they say, so they say. Please I cry to the wind and the sea I want to play, I want to play..with my love. Too many soldiers died today, died today, died today. When I push I fall, when we push we fall, when they push they fall. We all fall down. Marla Stone