When My Time Here On Earth Is Done

When my time here on earth is done Written By Dean Masciarelli Monday, December 28, 2009 It has been very difficult Living my whole life without my natural parents And for the longest time I never knew there names But I did find out that they gave me a name And then I found out that I had lived with them For eight months But then for some reason that I cannot explain The state had intervened And they took myself and my two brothers and my sister away So that we could all be put up for adoption and live in a stable home And then two years ago I was reconnected with two of my other sisters that I had never known And they were the only ones who were raised by my birth parents And they are both younger then I am And when I finally met them they told me that my natural parents had already passed on And I think that is the main reason that I have hardly ever been able to trust anyone or to get to close to them Because I was always afraid that I would get hurt all over again But I will admit in the past two years I have started healing And I know that it will take me a long time to be whole again But it is just a crying shame that I never had a chance to meet my other sister who is still around and my two brothers that passed on Just like my Dad and my Mom Because I would have enjoyed having the opportunity to get to know all of them So that they could all see that I am a beautiful loving and caring human being That would have loved them all until the very end Because I learned to forgive them But as the old saying goes Some times things happen for a reason That we cannot explain And only God will be the one to explain everything When my time here on earth is done