When Love Knocks

When I put my front down And close my eyes I realize how much the pain hurts And that love never dies When I put my front down Tears start to swell in my eyes I wipe them away quickly So you cannot see my demise When I put my front down I can’t help but cry; I thought it was over But subconsciously I still love you I feel so shameful I do not know what to do When I put my front down, The world sees me as I am In the hours that I am more drunk than high I beckon, beckon you to my side But you do not care Nor should I But what else can I do When I subconsciously cannot stop loving you Where can I turn when I am feeling lonely inside I look for you in certain places I look for you in new faces But alas you are never there I am tired of this game This game was not fun I run everywhere, looking for the sun The sun that used to beam inside my heart Before lust took over our lives And tore everything apart I am endlessly trending water now, Just trying to make it by But the problem here baby I do not know how to swim, I am scared I will die You threw me in the ocean The ocean of my own tears Now I feel as if I am drowning Drowning in all these fears My heart, under water I can’t find which way is up I am scared Scared to meet a better you Scared that they will do the things you did When love knocks at my door, I push her away I am too scared Too scared to have my happiness taken away again One day, I hope it will all be okay again