When I'm Crying

I started dating this pretty great guy He’s never tried to make me cry I don’t know how I feel about him I mean in my heart I know he’s being genuine I love him so much But gosh It really sucks To never be able to talk Not in person, text, or call To be left on delivered half the day To simply get a response saying okay To pour my heart into a paragraph To hardly even get an I love you back But when we do call You let me just sit and talk You love me differently than anyone else You make me feel better about myself You’ve helped me get through so many things And from my knowlegde, without even knowing You gave me light at the end of the tunnel When I buried myself at rock bottom, you handed me a shovel Then the second I wipe my tears away You stop talking to me and go about your day Like no conversation happened Like its something I imagined Am I crazy, going insane Yet again imagining things Or am I treated more like your guy friend Than your girlfriend I mean you are always on my mind And I mean… all the time But am I ever even in your head Do you even mean the things you’ve said Because I know for sure that I do You don’t even understand how much I love you But sometimes I get scared That you really don’t even care I mean you say you love me But that’s hard to believe When you only pay attention to me When I’m crying