When I Was Young

when i was young at five or six, the smallest of my parent's kid's. i was lost as pawn in game. pulled and pushed and used for gain. they split us up two boys,two girl's. gave each of us our separate world's. sent away many mile's apart. broken in spirit,mind and heart. i remember having many a home. all which seemed dark,damp and cold. i remember never saying a word. children should be seen not heard. i remember the social's work. and the over intrusive question's incurred. i remember the loneliest of child's. and probably still can if i face my denial's. when i was young at nine or ten. i started loosing myself then. replaced by uncertain night's and day's. wondering who next will go away. they didn't just take my thirst for life. but made me retreat to what's inside. my fallen life in a judge's hand's. an entire family tried upon the stand. i lost one parent for ever then. when i was young at nine or ten.