When I Look Outside

I live in the moment I'll feel alive in the next Put me under your hex and teach me how to forget Show me how to see the sun When it's cold and it's dark And how to keep that image in my mind When I look outside I've already forgot I feel alive in this moment I promise I'll be alive in the next I just need some time to flex my mind and think my way out of it But I can't picture the sun If I'm never shown it How can I paint this picture in my head When I look outside it's the world that I dread