What Would You Do?

FALLING, FALLING SO QUICKLY TO MY KNEES, I'M LOSING MY GRIP ON SANITY, CAN SOMEBODY HELP ME PLEASE!?! I MADE A MISTAKE AND I CAN'T TAKE IT BACK. I LET HIM BACK IN OUR LIVES, NOT THINKING OF THE FACTS. I WANTED TO BELIEVE THAT HE HAD FINALLY CHANGED. HE MADE IT SOUND SO REAL WITH THE LIES HE SANG. I WAS SO DOWN ON MYSELF, FULL OF SADNESS, SO DEPRESSED. ALL THE PAIN INSIDE OF ME DID CAUSE ME TO REGRESS. NOW I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO TO GET BACK ON MY FEET, I CAN'T GO THROUGH IT ALL AGAIN, HE'S ALREADY SHOWN THE PAST WILL REPEAT. WHAT DO I TELL MY KIDS? I SCREWED UP THEIR HEADS SO BAD. I LET THEM SEE THEY'RE DADDY, NOW IT'S ME AT WHO THEY'LL BE MAD. I WISH HE WOULD JUST DISAPPEAR AND NOT PUT US THROUGH ANY MORE PAIN. HE KNOWS HOW DOWN I FEEL, I THINK HE WANTS ME TO GO INSANE. I HAD WHAT I REALLY WANTED, I STILL DON'T KNOW WHAT WENT WRONG. I TRIED TO FILL THE VOID WITH THE ONE WHO JUST DOESN'T BELONG. THE AGONY EATS AWAY AT MY WANT, MY WILL, TO LIVE. MY KIDS DESERVE SO MUCH BETTER THAN I'LL EVER BE ABLE TO GIVE. I TURNED TO THE WRONG PERSON, HE NOW KNOWS THE THOUGHTS IN MY HEAD. HE ISN'T HELPING AT ALL, ACTUALLY, I THINK HE WANTS ME TO BE DEAD. THE MORE I THINK ABOUT IT, THE MORE I REALIZE THAT IT IS TRUE. MY KIDS WOULD HAVE BETTER LIVES WITHOUT ME, SO TELL ME, WHAT WOULD YOU DO?