What the Hell Happened? (Part Two)

when she met the homely older man with the big nose, shoulders hunched about his ears as if to ward off further blows, she married him and moved far away and at first it was okay grateful for every day that passed admiring herself in the looking glass every day that he expressed his adoration in every way except penetration and his impotence drove him to drink as she stood staring at the sink and wonderered how it all went so wrong her dream had been so strong that she would lead a perfect life be a perfect wife though she tried, she tried, her facade so flawless she was able to hide kept it all inside until the anguish brought pain crippling and insane every day, every day only the strongest drugs held it at bay making her almost catatonic stumbling through the day and maybe if she ignores these kids of hers they will go away three thousand miles from home and all she'd ever known how she'd tried to fit in every day the pain would win and bring her to her knees oh, please, oh, please, and the only friend she'd ever made she eventually betrayed their friendship was shallow the only reason she kept up the sallow farce was minimal a common language she overlooked the fact that she was Austrian (despied by the Swiss) her father a Nazi war criminal but, hell, at least she was someone to have over for tea and speak her native tongue social climbing rung by rung the real shame of this fake was that her only friend's husband was a handsome rake and stirred feelings deep inside her that she had never felt before and she craved more and the drugs, homesickness, loneliness, self centeredness, impotense and desire burned out of control like a fire and warped into perversion her son became her diversion innocense lost in the worst way and even when he ran away at sixteen nothing was ever addressed but she could no longer molest and her will was finally broken down by this Austrian clown his charm, so suave, his charm that caused so much harm her only friend betrayed