What Now

The leaves turn brown and the cold sets in As darkness falls, my joy grows dim I'm unsure of the problem and why it arose Why have you just appeared-suppose only God knows It was never a problem- and I managed okay But all of a sudden that changed one day I rack my brain in hope of a clue But why when I walk past you, I feel the way I do I'm embarrassed to say and I'm ashamed to admit But the option is not there for me to dismiss it Do I explore, or do I hope and pray it will go away Do I have the confidence to speak the words I want to say The confusion I have sends my head spinning round The echoing voice in my head makes a sound I'm confused, I'm scared, I'm at my wits end I so desperately want this situation to end If I keep hiding will anyone seek me If I keep running will it set me free If I keep seeking will I ever find The life I crave which runs through my mind