What Matters

How long have I felt this way If it not for hope of a better day I'd be dead And until that better day I'll be hollow Empty from the love clishe Have I not been deserving of such a desire Or do I intend for a moment then leave Either way it's a moment I'll adore Subconscious fantasies throw smiles and laughter upon me Confiding in myself I've dropped all I need To get what I want, contagious It spreads to them around to only supersede Hardened threats with softened demeanors Penultimate feelings seem to be To those all around and within me But they're still everything that matters in my world