What If

What If I cared more & truly gave a damn? Would I be in this position That I am? What If I loved more & stopped thinking of me? Could this had been prevented? Did this have to be? What If I listened to her Would she have wanted to stay? I ask myself these questions Every single day. What If I prayed with her? Would God have sympathy on me? I wonder if that's the reason Why he set my wife free? What If I went to church All those Sundays I refused? Would she still be here? Would I be the one she'd choose? What If I cared more about What she thought & her feelings? My behavior over these past 10 years Have been eye-opening & revealing. I didn't care. I didn't try. I didn't love. There's no excuse why. She was my blessing To me God's greatest gift. Now I'm left here asking myself.........What If