What Happened?

Why is it so hard for me, To stop thinking about you, For just one day, You go around my head like a carousel, Driving me crazy, Day and night I think about us, And all the dreams we want to make it true, I wish I could just marry you, I am tired of waiting and waiting, I feel like a stone, I can't move forward or backward, I think we both need a change, To do something together as one, Everyday I apply for a job, I am tired of nothing at all, I am tired of technology, I am tired of doing nothing with my life, The things i try to change,isn't working! I don't know when will the day come, For both of us to be stable, And be together forever, My best-friend and never apart, It sucks that you are not around, I miss our times alone, I miss those days being awake, Talking about our thoughts and dreams, Time is running and we can't catch up with it, I am loosing my mind, I just want to hold you tight, And never let you out my sight, Why do we stuggle to live? When we just want a simple life?