What Ect Did For Me

I WAS CIRCUMED TO THIS TREATMENT 7 TIMES TO BE EXACT YOU ARE RIGHT WHEN STATING THE INSUATING FACT THEY RUIN YOUR TODAY PROMISING BETTER TOMORROW STILL CONTINUING TO BE STUCK IN MY BIPLOAR SORROW EXCEPT THE NEW MEMORY LOSS I ENCOUNTER ON A DAILY BASIS I GUESS SANITY DOESNT INCLUDE A SUSTAINABLE HOMEOSTASIS I WAS TOLD I BECAME VIOLENT AFTER TREATMENTS THEY PROVIDED I WAS THE ONLY ONE WHO NOTICED THE ANTI SEIZURAL MEDICATION THAT WAS STILL BEING PROVIDED HARD TO INDUCE A SEIZURE WHEN MEDICATED TO DO THE OPPOSITE DOCTOR SAYS TO ME DIRECTLY HE CRANKED THE KNOB TO A POINT HE WASNT COMFORTABLE WITH SO I SUFFERED HIGHER VOLTAGE SO THEY COULD GIVE ME THEIR CURE AGAIN I FORGET EVERYTHING AND I STILL FEEL INSECURE MEMORY LOSS IS THE LEAST OF MY STORIES TO BE TOLD OF ECT THEY DIDNT CURE ANYTHING THEY SIMPLY ELECTROCUTED ME I SUFFERED ALL OF THESE TREATMENTS JUST TO RETURN TO A EMPTY HOME CONTINUING SUICIDAL THOUGHTS THEY LEFT IN MY MIND TO ROAM SOMEDAY I HOPE TO BE REMEMBERED BECAUSE LIFE HAS ONLY SHOWN ME OVERLOOKED GUESS I WAS THE ONLY ONE READING THE LIST OF MEDICATIONS IN MY FILE BEFORE THE TEATMENTS WERE BOOKED THEY SEDATE YOU AND YOU AWAKE TO STUDENTS WATCHING YOU CONVULSE INSTEAD OF THE MEMORIES I HAVE WISH THEY ERASED MY PULSE I NOW SURVIVED ANOTHER TRAGIC LIFE EXPERIENCE THAT FUELS MY BIPOLAR RACING MIND SUICIDE NEVER SEEMED SO DESIRABLE... FUNNY IN THE RESEARCH THAT FACT I DIDNT FIND SO STUCK HERE DREAMING OF THE BULLET THAT FINALLY ERASES MY PAIN STILL UNDER THE CLOUD OF ELECTRO CONVULSIVE THERAPY INDUCED RAIN