Wears Me Down

Sometimes the feeling Of being small Has nothing to do with size But your own perception. A smile is not always a smile Or a reflection of your heart Sometimes it is only due To practice. I'm a happy person I repeat constantly Until I believe. It always wears me down. Yes I am blessed That's true. I'm so thankful Without a doubt. But I fight A battle everyday. No one sees me cry. No one will hear my pain. I'm a happy person I repeat constantly Until I believe. But it wears me down. Feeling Insignificant Has nothing to do with How others see you But what you see in the mirror. My smile Which I have practiced Remains plastered on my face And I won't give up. Won't admit defeat. But it wears me down. I bounce back Like a rubber band Continually changing And stretching But remaining intact. I'm a happy person I repeat constantly Until I believe. But it continues to wear me down.