Watching My Life Fall Apart

Alone, lost, confussed, broken, lost hope. That is everything i feel. i cant help it, its like watching a movie, but watching myself fall apart it is like torcher, i am always alone, but that is my choice, i am broken, ive been broken a couple of times, i honestly dont believe in love anymore, i have lost hope in love, it never last, not true love, because their is no such thing. im confussed, where is my life going? am i going to be emo forever? will i ever get through this? will i ever find someone that i really love? so many questions, and no answers for them. I think i should just leave the world, becasue it is no fun watching my life, fall apart. itslike im breaking my heart more and more everyday, all the dreams, everything i want to come true, but deep down i know, it's never gonna happen, just the thought of it, breaks me into even more depression and sorrow..