Was It Worth It

I spend my days; I want to find the answers. I cannot remember the questions; Nevertheless, I do know the reasons. For a month, weeks, days there is this huge battle. This is my battle between mind and heart. I want this battle to stop. Six years is long. It has become a history. It is gone forever. Never to be returned. A friend once said. “Yesterday is history, Tomorrow is a mystery, Today is a gift, that’s why they call it the present.” These are wonderful words. Sad if you do not remember it. Joyful if you use each second of your life. Time is not to be wasted. I waste my time on the things already in the past. My mind is telling me to go on with my life. My heart is still longing for the past. I am afraid to go into something new. For six years, I have wasted my life. I waste it on something I thought was real. It ripped my heart, He left me with thoughts. Was it really worth it?