Was It Meant To Be This Way

Was it meant to be this way? Was my life suppose to be like this because I did something wrong? Please tell me it was not meant to be this way Please tell me how I can change it. I feel so much pain I don't feel anything any more Is it this way because of the path that I chose. Was my life supposed to be a hell hole? I am screaming in pain but no one seems to hear me at all! I want the pain to go away it seems to always be there I hate feeling the pain Was it really meant to be this way?