Was I Not?

tears wells up in my eyes and cramps my heart as this loud pain's scream twists in into unexplainable twirls that just provokes my unstable stomach Its a replay of yesterday that I cant still take I slept hoping the moon would rob me of the weight of my sorrows but no... I woke to find winds that fed on my flesh and soiled my eyes and nostrils with pain Holding my breath into the ice box that contains me... Tomorrow never promised me anything so it just burnt my skin when dawn cracked I can't handle this heat but it would not just come out i want to rip out my ribs and get some air Its heavy...humid and suffocating these warm tears exploit my frozen cheeks neglecting their delicacy piercing my skin like razor blades they itch and makes me bleed more wishes to have known These streams flooding out of these slunted eyes only filters fear from my system And drains my energy weakening me to a point where i can't even open Anopther chapter... but then at the back of my mind i ask... " Do i even have another chapter?" will I even see the other day? can i breathe just one more time was i not worth a chance to know how it feels to look at you to know you And maybe...grow up with you was I not...?