Walls Split Apart

Life's turning in a direction I don't want it to go Losing the one I had just to gain the ones that are close I fake my way through all the nights of hurt I'm running away now staying with a race I know I see the joy I see the growth but no ladder to get there I'm thrown in among the crowd my tongue stays quite to hold my emotion When I'm poked and prodded I just explode I wish to be alone I wish to stay calm But that's not allowed in this system That's how I fall trapped to my own emotions trapped where I don't want to be I'm told give HIM a chance I don't know how to do that confined in my room still wishing how things were Not being able to move forward even after all these years The walls are up keeping my emotions in separating me from where I should be and I'm not able to let anyone in