Wake Up and See the Light

My life is like a sad song that no one wants to play cause then all their emotions just might get in the way and no one really knows exactly what to say things have been spinning out of control for quite a long time now each time I think I have a good grip that's when it begins to slip whirling around again and I'm left to wonder will it ever end? I know hearts get broken and need to mend but even when you think you can move on you sometimes may still sink be careful when you blink reality changes and life hits hard you can't always keep up your guard that's when you don't want to deal with what life has handed you and fantasy sets in So I soon found myself pondering over what could have been that in itself drove me insane I realized I could longer take life in vain and things couldn't stay the same everything once again had to change i want my life back as it once was before I know though I can only move forward there's no going back no matter how much you pray, dream, hope, wish or try this only makes me want to cry But there's a message that I need to send to a very long lost but dear special friend yet finding him thus far hasn't proved to be promising i still keep searching even though each time it's failed it brings heartache and tears not doing this however will bring me to many other fears more than the ones I already now face from over the years and hopefully the end will have the means and my just reward will be oh so sweet then those tears will be ones of joy one thing I've learned from all this confusion if you find true down deep love unconditional love capture it and hang on it may be one hell of a flight but if you do let go to mister right don't let him to far out of your sight because one day you to just might wake up and see the light